Floating on a Sea of Stars || KeL's Blog

Sunday, July 26, 2009

I guess after all these years, one still need a platform to vent his emotions or frustrations.

A few yrs ago, where blog was the "in" thing, ppl like me, for instance, write for the sake of writing,
for ppl to view. We get fed-up when ppl dun tag, when ppl dun view.

After 1 over years , I find myself coming back to this rusty old platform, to share my story to him,
the one faithfully waiting for me all these years.

I realized it mattered not, if no one comes to read this post.

So after a year and a half,
I'm 6 mths away from ORDing,
and i got happy attached with a wonderful girl.

As with all relationships,
there bound to be problems.

Every NSF will tell u the same story.
Afraid of GF to go studying while they're in army,
for fear that GF will get hooked up with other guys.

I guess its the same for me.
darling is going into uni nxt week.
The sense of uneasiness grows everyday.

I dunno if its mere coincidence or what,
this week when darling and i went out,
after awhile, she said she felt tired and sick.
I of cause, not having enough time with her,
was sad.

Night.
Went Gab house to get water bottle.
Saw SiQi with him.
Became jealous.
They spend like every single moment with each other.
I dun even get 1 full day combined in a week.

Try to do sth nice, bought milktea,
deliever to her house,
but so what?
No hug, no kiss, no appreciation,
but more sadness.

Spited her.
And when she reply,
purposely Didnt reply her.
When an SMS came in, heartbeat increase tot is was her,
tot she will come find me at wherever i am.
Thought wrong.
SMS from XUBEIBEI.
Felt stupid and retared.
Why will she even SMS you, not talking bout finding you.

Went to the arcade to play HOTD 4,
then some stupid PRC rudely came in and join mygame,
and screw up.
HAVE to COVER HER ASS MOST OF THE TIME.
end up being frustrated and more pissed off with the world.

Drove home,
wanted to listen radio.
Radio didn work.
Felt fucked up.
Wheel down the window.
Speeding thru the highway @110KM/HR.
Hoping the wind can blow away my sadness.
Didn really work.

Car was shaky.
Couldn really control the car.
Had to hold on with 2 hands at the steering wheel.
Some BUS cut into my lane
E break.
Almost bang into the bus.

REached home,
Nag by parents as always.
Crossing my fingers hoping to see if she's online.
Disappointed yet again.

Fuck My Life.