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2011-01-11T06:05:00.000-08:00

2011.

I find myself :

1) In uni (unexpectedly)
2) turned 21
3) single

Life is full of love, joy peace and laughter. Maybe with a teeny winny bit of tears.
Well, maybe the amount of tears increased...
Otherwise, nth much have changed.

sad

2009-08-13T08:32:00.000-07:00

难道，担心，也是一种过错？
关心，也是一种罪？

junk

2009-08-02T05:34:00.000-07:00

I feel like a piece of junk on the floor,
a thorn in a flesh that someone cant wait to pluck out.
Once gone,
she will be able to be free,
without worries.
i should just disappear forever.
I feel like saying:
Bye, cruel world

everything is okay =)

2009-07-29T05:30:00.000-07:00

everything is okay =)

prob not solved

2009-07-27T06:46:00.000-07:00

Whatever the problem is, i guess that is more than it meets its eyes.
So darling went to sch today.
I didn sleep at all yest night.
Keep having bad dreams.

Dreamt that i went to the arcade and won a PSP using the stackers game.
Happily i went to her house wanting to give her,
then see a guy walking her home and still gave her a kiss.

She claimed its nth but a few days later i saw them walking out of a hotel.

i guess its not that i dun trust her.
im really afraid, im really am.

back

2009-07-26T07:38:00.000-07:00

I guess after all these years, one still need a platform to vent his emotions or frustrations.

A few yrs ago, where blog was the "in" thing, ppl like me, for instance, write for the sake of writing,
for ppl to view. We get fed-up when ppl dun tag, when ppl dun view.

After 1 over years , I find myself coming back to this rusty old platform, to share my story to him,
the one faithfully waiting for me all these years.

I realized it mattered not, if no one comes to read this post.

So after a year and a half,
I'm 6 mths away from ORDing,
and i got happy attached with a wonderful girl.

As with all relationships,
there bound to be problems.

Every NSF will tell u the same story.
Afraid of GF to go studying while they're in army,
for fear that GF will get hooked up with other guys.

I guess its the same for me.
darling is going into uni nxt week.
The sense of uneasiness grows everyday.

I dunno if its mere coincidence or what,
this week when darling and i went out,
after awhile, she said she felt tired and sick.
I of cause, not having enough time with her,
was sad.

Night.
Went Gab house to get water bottle.
Saw SiQi with him.
Became jealous.
They spend like every single moment with each other.
I dun even get 1 full day combined in a week.

Try to do sth nice, bought milktea,
deliever to her house,
but so what?
No hug, no kiss, no appreciation,
but more sadness.

Spited her.
And when she reply,
purposely Didnt reply her.
When an SMS came in, heartbeat increase tot is was her,
tot she will come find me at wherever i am.
Thought wrong.
SMS from XUBEIBEI.
Felt stupid and retared.
Why will she even SMS you, not talking bout finding you.

Went to the arcade to play HOTD 4,
then some stupid PRC rudely came in and join mygame,
and screw up.
HAVE to COVER HER ASS MOST OF THE TIME.
end up being frustrated and more pissed off with the world.

Drove home,
wanted to listen radio.
Radio didn work.
Felt fucked up.
Wheel down the window.
Speeding thru the highway @110KM/HR.
Hoping the wind can blow away my sadness.
Didn really work.

Car was shaky.
Couldn really control the car.
Had to hold on with 2 hands at the steering wheel.
Some BUS cut into my lane
E break.
Almost bang into the bus.

REached home,
Nag by parents as always.
Crossing my fingers hoping to see if she's online.
Disappointed yet again.

Fuck My Life.

I'm noob

2008-03-23T06:34:00.000-07:00

love

2008-03-20T09:20:00.001-07:00

love is just painful.

The chemistry of love

2008-03-11T22:44:00.000-07:00

What you need to know about love. the chemistry and biology behind it

Lust is the initial passionate sexual desire that promotes mating, and involves the increased release of chemicals such as testosterone and estrogen. These effects rarely last more than a few weeks or months. Attraction is the more individualized and romantic desire for a specific candidate for mating, which develops out of lust as commitment to an individual mate forms. Recent studies in neuroscience have indicated that as people fall in love, the brain consistently releases a certain set of chemicals, including pheromones, dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin, which act similar to amphetamines, stimulating the brain's pleasure center and leading to side-effects such as an increased heart rate, loss of appetite and sleep, and an intense feeling of excitement. Research has indicated that this stage generally lasts from one and a half to three years.

Since the lust and attraction stages are both considered temporary, a third stage is needed to account for long-term relationships. Attachment is the bonding which promotes relationships that last for many years, and even decades. Attachment is generally based on commitments such as marriage and children, or on mutual friendship based on things like shared interests. It has been linked to higher levels of the chemicals oxytocin and vasopressin than short-term relationships have.

In 2005, Italian scientists at Pavia University found that a protein molecule known as the nerve growth factor (NGF) has high levels when people first fall in love, but these levels return to as they were after one year. Specifically, four neurotrophin levels, i.e. NGF, BDNF, NT-3, and NT-4, of 58 subjects who had recently fallen in love were compared with levels in a control group who were either single or already engaged in a long-term relationship. The results showed that NGF levels were significantly higher in the subjects in love than as compared to either of the control groups.

Quoted from Wikipedia - love

New branch

2008-02-27T07:56:00.000-08:00

Kena posted from wose branch to officers branch.although quite sad to leave my good buddies, i'm lookin forward to the new job scope that i have to face.

GAMBATTE!

有个女孩非常希望能看见自己的男朋友的眼泪，那个坚强的男人从未在她面前流过泪，日子一年年的过去，他们的幸福让女孩愈加好奇男人的眼泪，他究竟什么时候才会哭一次呢？“傻瓜，别试着想看见我的泪，真有那一天，那么肯定是有非常悲痛的事情发生。”他懂她的小心眼，却又忍不住笑她的纯真。女孩的好奇得不到满足，她想知道男人的眼泪是什么样的，究竟是苦是咸？上天给了她机会，天使光顾了她的家。

“真的想看见他的眼泪吗？”天使问她。
“能有办法吗？”
“可以，不过你会消失几天。”
“我上哪儿去了呢？”
“变成了空气中的水，但你能时刻陪着他，看着他，你愿意吗？”

女孩瞬间变成了空气中的水，一切变得新鲜。先看看他现在在干什么。停靠在男人房前的窗户上，她看见男人正在辛勤地工作，计算数据，制作图表，忙得不亦乐乎。忽然他走到了电话机前，她想起每天晚上10点他们都会通个电话，他打不通电话会怎么样呢？她愈发好奇，瞪大眼睛看着。果然他拨了好多次都没人回应，这么早就睡了？让她睡个好觉吧，男人嘴角浮现出温柔的笑容。她却有点失望，为什么不着急呢？

第二天，男人准时上班下班，忙碌了一天，回到家马上又给女孩打了个电话，仍然无人应答。男人开始不停打电话，打遍了所有朋友和亲戚的电话，没有人知道女孩去了哪里。男人似乎有点急了，在房间里走来走去，她在窗口有些幸灾乐祸。

男人穿起外套，甩门而出，她紧随其后。

先来到了女孩的家，大门紧闭，邻居说昨天晚上就没见到她。女孩父母的家中，两个老人以为他们俩在一起，看着二老鬓角斑白，他不忍告诉老人她失踪了。看着他眼角的焦急，她有点后悔了。

整个晚上，他没睡觉，他找遍了所有他们约会过的地方，到处都有她的身影，可又找不到她。一夜的奔波让他憔悴了一大圈，连他一向整洁引以为豪的下巴也长出了胡子。他累了，瘫倒在沙发上。她忍不住想摸摸他的胡子渣，想给他盖条被子，可她只是空气中的水啊！她想对天使说，我不想看见他的泪了，让我变回人吧！可天使没有再光顾她的家。

第三天，男人依然要上班，可是眼里没有了以前的光彩，走着路会突然转过身找什么，她以为他发现了自己，可她只是透明的水气啊！她只能笑自己的纯真。男人下班后不再直接回家，来到了他们约会的老地方，那儿有棵老梧桐。他坐在梧桐树下的座椅上，显得那么孤单。他好象在想些什么，在等些什么。
“你会出现的，对吗？”

第四天，男人又来到了这里，并带来了一块小玻璃石，里面还有一艘小帆船。他不发一言，只呆呆地望着玻璃石。她想起他们说好以后要一起出海旅行。

第五天，男人没来，她在他的床上找到了他，他在睡觉吗？看着他苍白无神的脸，她心痛地快死去，天使，你归来吧！

第六天，男人把玻璃石扔进了大海，让他的心一起沉入大海。她一阵心酸，天使，让我变回人吧！天使终于来到了她身边，

“太晚了，你马上就要离开这世界，和他吻别吧！”

她的泪瞬间落了下来，一周的消失就让他憔悴成这样，要是自己真的不在了，他该怎么办？她吻了吻他的唇，发现他的唇上有了一滴泪，那就是自己。原来男人的眼泪就是她！

她大声叫唤着，不，我不要离开……

还好，那只是一个梦，她在庆幸的同时告诉自己，再也不要看见男人的眼泪了，因为那便意味着自己的消失……

心爱的女人，在男人眼里，就是他的一切

ns

2008-02-21T05:21:00.001-08:00

sian.. ns work starts tomorrow again..
have to be in that sian medical docket room tml. tsk tsk
anyway.. anyone interested to join superband?
need guitarist, drummer..

10m toto in 8 mins!

posting

2008-02-15T08:07:00.000-08:00

posted to NSAD. today reported to Army museum for first day for some outing thingy. wierd way they celebrate total defence day.

lame song

2008-02-08T08:16:00.001-08:00

here are the lyrics for the lame song:

hello i am your sergeant
and u are all my man
you will listen to exactly what i say understand!
when i ask u to eat u eat
when i say sleep u sleep!
Do you know what i will do to u if u screw up my plan.

Knock it down! knock it down!
Get your hands on the floor and knock it down!
knock it down! knock it down!
just take it like a man and knock it down!

If you dont have a girlfriend,
at least now u got a wife.
she just turn 21 and so u guard her with yr life!
she is brand new model,
and she shoots very far!
she is made in singapura
and her name is SAR!

SAR!(21) Sar (21)
she's the new rifle of singapura
SAR!(21) Sar (21)
don't trifle with this rifle SAR! (21)

when i was in BMT,
i used to weigh a tonne..
my PTI said :
OEI! MY GRANDMA CAN WALK FASTER THEN YOU RUN! (reply :then dun run lo!)
last time i cant do chin ups,
but now i can do 5.
i'm so proud of my achievements,
All thanks to PTI.

oh why so slow? drop 20,
now u run 20 times around the SOC!
twist my arm, sprain my knees,
Go ask MO to give me attend C.

Knock it down! knock it down!
Get your hands on the floor and knock it down!
knock it down! knock it down!
just take it like a man and knock it down!

I use to hear those stories,
that army life was rough!
I use to be like gu niang!
but army made me tough!
after 2 yrs of training,
now then i know why.
when the enemy starts firing,
when the enemy starts firing,
when the enemy starts firing,
when the enemy starts firing,
you dont have time to hide!

Knock it down! knock it down!
i'm like semi - automatic knock it down!
knock it down! knock it down!
just take it like a man and knock it down!
if you dont want to get killed then KNOCK IT DOWN!
knock it down, knock it down!
i'm a semi - automatic, so u better KNOCK IT DOWN!

army life

2008-02-06T08:42:00.000-08:00

on 25 jan 2008, i was forced to sign two years of my life to the SAF.
yea.. now onli two weeks in to ns and i cant wait to ORD already.

Actually this song is really touching and it applies to me

In the early morning run,
with my field pack on my back.
With an aching in my heart,
and my body full of sweat.

I'm a long long way from home,
and i miss my mama so.
in the early moring run,
as the cold wind blows x5

I know i know,
you have to go.
So hurry back home,
cause i miss u so.

Besides this, there are propegenda songs like

Training to be soldiers,
fight for our land,
once in a life,
2 yrs of our time.

Have u ever wondered?
why must we serve,
cause we love our land,
and we want it to be free, to be free.

Anyway here is a cute video about ns

after injuring myself on the 3rd day,
and becoming OOT,
have been doing alot of SK like cutting papers and stuff.

somemore that day book out phone get stolen. fuck sia.

hong kong

2008-01-24T07:32:00.000-08:00

just came back from hongkong and it was fun

well.. i think i dun really wanna blog about what happen there., you can just refer to
pigs blog.

but here are some of the most memorable incidents:

1) turning pooh into a honey pot
2) constant suanning and kajiaoing of pig
3) disneyland
4) dim sum
5) giving mf wrong directions
6) the roast duck on the last day
7) the magazine which i forgot to bring the cd back, even thou i wanted to

And here is sth stupid. eVerything is just meant as a joke. we just did this on the mrt one fine day

the A-Z of meifung

A - Atrocious
B - Blonde ( provided by herself)
C - Childish
D- Dumb
E - Egocentric
F - Fucked- Up ( provided by her)
G - Groogy
H- Horrible
I - Idiotic
J - Jinx
K - Klutsy
m - messy
n - notorious
0 - obnoxious
p - piggy
q - queer
r - rowdy
s - slacker
t - troublesome
u - untidy
v- vain
w - weak
x -
y -
z- zonked

currently cant think of anything for x and y haha

anyway going ns tml sian

jay chou concert

2008-01-18T14:00:00.000-08:00

Today was my sentimental last day at my work place.
Andd all the teachers were v nice to me =)
haha not saying that they were mean to me before but..
yea.. lots of appreciative and encouraging words and stuff.
And mrs Elaine Goh treated me lunch =)

and driving was an improvement =) yay.
my instructor even managed to get a quick nap when i drove from ubi to bedok =.=

Jay Chou concert was great. =) even though he was quite bhb and keep saying " what day is it today?" it was his birthday la btw. lol

now blogging at the airport with pig and fan preparing to fly off. =)

everyone is blogging =)

bleah. pig pig pig pig pig pig mf

45 things to do if you noe you're going to fail the exam anyway

2008-01-15T18:51:00.000-08:00

45 things to do in an exam if you know you are going to fail anyway

Roll up your coat to form a pillow and pretend to fall asleep until the last 20 minutes of the exam. Then wake up, do some gibberish work and hand it in a few minutes early.

Make paper airplanes out of the exam paper.

When you have finished your paper, start marking it in red ink.

Talk the entire way through the exam. Read questions aloud, debate your answers with yourself out loud. If asked to stop, yell out, "I'm SOOO sure you can hear me thinking." Then start talking about what a jerk the instructor is.

Bring cheerleaders and supporters.

Walk in, get the exam, sit down. About five minutes into it, loudly say to the instructor, "I don't understand ANY of this. I've been to every lecture all semester long! What's the deal? And who the hell are you? Where's the regular guy?

Bring a CD Player or Game Boy. Play the device with the volume at max level.

On the answer sheet (book, whatever) find a new, interesting way to refuse to answer every question. For example: I refuse to answer this question on the grounds that it conflicts with my religious beliefs. Be creative.

Bring a pet.

Fifteen minutes into the exam, stand up, rip up all the papers into very small pieces, throw them into the air and yell out "Merry Christmas." If you're really daring, ask for another copy of the exam. Say you lost the first one. Repeat this process every fifteen minutes.

Do the exam with crayons, paint, or fluorescent markers.

Come into the exam wearing slippers, a bathrobe, a towel on your head, and nothing else.

Come down with a severe case of Ah Beng's Syndrome during the exam. Be as vulgar as possible.

Do the entire exam in another language, e.g. Klingon. If you don't know one, make one up! For math/science exams, try using Roman numerals.

Bring things to throw at the instructor when s/he's not looking. Blame it on the person nearest to you.

As soon as the instructor hands you the exam, eat it.

Walk into the exam with an entourage. Claim you are going to be taping your next video during the exam. Try to get the instructor to let them stay, be persuasive. Tell the instructor to expect a percentage of the profits if they are allowed to stay.

Every five minutes, stand up, collect all your things, move to another seat, continue with the exam.

Turn in the exam approximately 30 minutes into it. As you walk out, start commenting on how easy it was.

Do the entire exam as if it was multiple choice and true/false. If it is a multiple choice exam, spell out interesting things (DCCAB. BABE. etc..).

Bring a black marker. Return the exam with all questions and answers completely blacked out.

Get the exam. Twenty minutes into it, throw your papers down violently, scream out "Fuck this!" and walk out triumphantly.

Arrange a protest before the exam starts (i.e. Threaten the instructor that whether or not everyone's done, they are all leaving after one hour to go drink)

Show up completely drunk. (Completely drunk means at some point during the exam, you should start crying for mommy).

Every now and then, clap twice rapidly. If the instructor asks why, tell him/her in a very derogatory tone, "the light bulb that goes on above my head when I get an idea is hooked up to a clapper. DUH!"

Comment on how sexy the instructor is looking that day.

Come to the exam wearing a black cloak. After about 30 minutes, put on a white mask and start yelling "I'm here, the phantom of the opera" until they drag you away.

Go to an exam for a class you have no clue about, where you know the class is very small, and the instructor would recognize you if you belonged. Claim that you have been to every lecture. Fight for your right to take the exam.

Upon receiving the exam, look it over, while laughing loudly, say "you don't really expect me to waste my time on this shit? Its 2 hours of my life wasted which i'll nvr get back !"

Bring a water pistol with you. Nuff said.

From the moment the exam begins, hum the theme to Mario. Ignore the instructor's requests for you to stop. When they finally get you to leave one way or another, begin whistling the theme london bridge is falling down.

Start a brawl in the middle of the exam.

If the exam is math/science related, make up the longest proofs you could possibly think of. Get pi and imaginary numbers into most equations. If it is a written exam, relate everything to your own life story.

Come in wearing a full knight's outfit, complete with sword and shield.

Bring a friend to give you a back massage the entire way through the exam. Insist this person is needed, because you have bad circulation.

Bring cheat sheets to another class (make sure this is obvious... like business notes for a math exam... otherwise you're not just failing, you're getting kicked out too) and staple them to the exam, with the comment "Please use the attached notes for references as you see fit."

When you walk in, complain about the heat. Strip.

After you get the exam, call the instructor over, point to any question, ask for the answer. Try to work it out of him/her.

Try to get people in the room to do the wave.

Play frisbee with a friend at the other side of the room.

Bring some large, cumbersome, ugly idol. Put it right next to you. Pray to it often. Consider a small sacrifice.

Get deliveries of candy, flowers, balloons, telegrams, etc... sent to you every few minutes throughout the exam.

During the exam, take apart everything around you. Desks, chairs, anything you can reach.

Complete the exam with everything you write being backwards at a 90 degree angle.

Bring a musical instrument with you, play various tunes. If you are asked to stop, say "it helps me think." Bring a copy of the Student Handbook with you, challenging the instructor to find the section on musical instruments during finals. Don't forget to use the phrase "Told you so".

yay man =)

driving

2008-01-15T06:44:00.000-08:00

I knew i shouldn have drive today cause of the heavy rain. but then the instructor was uncontactable so i went to lesson.

The road was so damn slippery and car accelerates darn fast =(

ah whever. and i langa car today sian. hit the mirror. no mood for lesson tml alr

driving

2008-01-08T20:46:00.000-08:00

i pass my basic theory test!
*smiles*
so looking forward to my driving lessons wahaha

a parents to child story

2008-01-05T07:05:00.000-08:00

a parent to child story

有一天，当我们老了，不再是你曾经熟悉的我的时候，

请给我一点耐心，我们渴望你的谅解

也许，我们吃东西会掉满身，
有也许。。。我们竟然不记得如何自己穿衣服，
请包容我们，你也许已经忘记当年我们是怎么一次又一次
叫你如何自己用餐，自己穿衣服

当我们一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语，
请耐心听我们说，不要打断我们。
你小的时候，我们也不得不重复那个讲过千百遍的故事，直到你近入梦乡。

如果我们不想冲凉，不要因此感到羞耻更不要责备我们，
还记得当年我们是如何追着你去洗澡你总是有千万个借口。

当我们对新科技和新事物不知所措时，请不要嘲笑我们。
想一想当初我们怎样耐性回答你一千个“为什么”。

也许我们有时候说话会前言不对后语，
请不要感到惊慌，给我们一些时间，我们会努力及起，
其实对我们来说，说些什么不重要，自要你愿意在一旁听我们说，我们已经很满足。

当我们的双脚不在听我们使唤，而必须仰赖拐杖的时候，
请伸出你年轻有力的手搀扶我们，就像小时候你学习走路时，我们扶着你那样。

如果有一天我们对你说：“我们对这个世界已经不再眷念，我们决定走完人生的路程。。。”
请不要生气，因为有一天你会明白，到了我们这个年纪，我们不再是生活而是生存。

虽然人生的旅途中，我们也许犯了不少错误，
但相信我们，我们总是希望给你最好的，
我们愿意为你遮挡一切风雨。

请让我们靠近你一点，用你的爱和温暖慰着我们日渐孱弱的身躯。

给我们你的爱与耐心，让我们用尊严走完生命的最后一段旅程。

我们回报以感激的微笑，这微笑装着满满的爱，
一份从未退减的爱

women

2007-12-26T20:28:00.000-08:00

By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.

An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered,
"Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken hear
and she will do everything with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish.

But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation
that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hours per day.
The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."

"She is soft," the Lord agreed,
"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?" asked the angel.

The Lord replied,
"Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate."
The angel then noticed something,
and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."

"That's not a leak,"
the Lord corrected," that's a tear!"

"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.

The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
her sorrow,
her pain,
her disappointment,
her love,
her loneliness,
her grief and
her pride."

The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give. However, if there is one flaw in women, Its that they forget their worth.

loney christmas

2007-12-22T07:07:00.001-08:00

for those who dun understand canto, here is a translation for u

誰又騎著那鹿車飛過
忘掉投下那禮物給我
凝視那燈飾只有今晚最光最亮
卻照亮我的寂寞

誰又能善心親一親我
由唇上來驗證我幸福過
頭上那飄雪想要棲息我肩膊上
到最後也別去麼

Merry, Merry Christmas
Lonely, Lonely Christmas
人浪中想真心告白
但你只想聽聽笑話
Lonely, Lonely Christmas
Merry, Merry Christmas
明日燈飾必須拆下
換到歡呼聲不過一剎

誰又能善心親一親我
由唇上來驗證我幸福過
頭上那飄雪想要棲息我肩膊上
到最後也別去麼

Merry, Merry Christmas
Lonely, Lonely Christmas
人浪中想真心告白
但你只想聽聽笑話
Lonely, Lonely Christmas
Merry, Merry Christmas
明日燈飾必須拆下
換到歡呼聲不過一剎

明晨遇到亦記不到和誰在醉酒中偷偷擁抱
仍然在傻笑但你哪知道我想哭
和誰撞到亦怕生保寧願在醉酒中辛苦嘔吐
仍然在頭痛合唱的詩歌聽不到

Merry, Merry Christmas
Lonely, Lonely Christmas
人浪中想真心告白
但你只想聽聽笑話
Lonely, Lonely Christmas
Merry, Merry Christmas
明日燈飾必須拆下
換到歡呼聲不過一剎

Merry, Merry Christmas
Lonely, Lonely Christmas
人浪中想真心告白
但你只想聽聽笑話
Lonely, Lonely Christmas
Merry, Merry Christmas
明日燈飾必須拆下
換到歡呼聲不過一剎

換到歡呼聲不過一剎

sad

2007-12-22T06:56:00.000-08:00

想哭
来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界
好像只有我疲惫
无所无所谓
反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

december

2007-12-16T19:09:00.000-08:00

十二月又到了。

总觉得十二月是一年之中最幸福快乐的一个月。

当学生的不必读书，上班族又快领花红，很多父母也在这个月里带孩子们到外国旅行。加上圣诞节又在这一个月里，增加了好多快乐的情绪。

如果新加坡这里能下雪，那12月就真的是很棒的一个月了。

喜欢12月，除了是因为自己个人的私心之外，也因为它意味着一年的结束，意味着自己已经顺利地战胜这11个月里的风风雨雨。对今年来说，就是那可怕的A levels 了。

18岁的心情是矛盾的，是那种渴望能拥有长大的自由，却又害怕因长大而失去了某些权利。

长大是快乐的。

但同时也是残酷的。

有时候，我真的希望自己还是一个懵懵懂懂的小孩。

可是人总是要长大，总会等到满脸皱纹、头发花白的一天。

我希望那时的我，还能笑着对镜子里的人说：

“我还是我"

monday blues.

2007-12-16T16:08:00.000-08:00

Its the same old feeling again. play and play and play until sunday night. then u feel so sian cause mon got work.

thanks bee pang (piggy) for the super belated b'day present.
and P.s. YOU VERI FUNNY LEH. POP UP OUTSIDE MY HOUSE IN A SUNDAY AFTERNOON WHEN MOST PPL ARE OUT!! haha. cheers.

2007-12-13T18:37:00.000-08:00

i've been thinking about it recently. is it that i'm working too hard for something, and then neglecting the rest? is it that i'm being too sensitive about how people treat me? is it that i'm being too suspicious of people's intentions? is it that i have absolutely no control over how i feel? is it that i'm not working hard enough? is it that i'm just being very problematic?

Maybe, if I had done everything in my life differently from the start, made different decisions, listened to others, maybe I would be leading a really different life now. Maybe I wouldn't even be in SAJC. Maybe I'll still be in SAJC, but not taking biology. Maybe I'll still take biologyin SAJC, but not in 06S21. Maybe I'll not have met some people. Maybe I'll have been enemies with others. Maybe I'll have good friends who are different. Maybe my character would be different. Maybe I wouldn't even be blogging this post. I don't know, really.I'm not emo. I'm just thinking. I hope it doesn't affect me.

btw this pic is really really sweet

You Are Rudolph

Sweet and shy, you tend to be happiest when you're making someone else happy.
Why You're Naughty: You sometimes stick that nose where it doesn't belong
Why You're Nice: Christmas would be a sad affair without you!

Which'>http://www.blogthings.com/whichofsantasreindeerareyouquiz/">Which of Santa's Reindeer Are You?

prom night

2007-12-11T16:06:00.000-08:00

5 dec 2007
SAJC grad night.
Can i say its memorable?
CAn i say i enjoyed it?
Its a day that i wont forget.
They first time i went to a serious event without dressing up.

Just went to zihan's shop for a haircut, borrowed a black jacket from yang,
wore my working attire ( t shirt and jeans that are alittle drench in rain) and i just went.

Didn bother to stay, didn talk to peiwen and ni zhen, quite pissed off that cheryl's bf crashed our table etcetc.

seems that things aren't going to clear up despite the last day of school, but so as it seems, out path of life differentiates from here. 你走你的阳光道，我走我的独木桥。

Went to bar stop.
wasnt very enjoyable as ji and piggy got curfew.
drank 1/2 pint of beer and left.

Life feels wierd now.
suddenly, people around you are leaving 1 by 1
leaving you alone

The girls will continue to study
while the guys start a new life.
oh well
at least no school on 2 jan. =)

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
总觉得今年过得特别得快哦。。
真的。我还不敢相信多两个礼拜就是圣诞节了
而1９天后我们就要和200７年说拜拜，踏入新的一年了啊。。。。。。。。。。
好快哦!!!都不知道圣诞节那天要做什么
最近很穷啊!!
气死人了
想出去玩或买东西都不行
最近每一天都过得很平淡
对于明天，明天的明天，和明天的明天的明天，
都是空白的
有时候会有种莫名的失落感
不知道自己到底要些什么，
该做些什么
最近忽略到了朋友
但每天只想和自己在一起。。
好像已经习惯了自己一个人过

感到无聊，决定回答100 各问题
1.) 性别: 应该是男的
2.) 出生日期: 我老妈记得比我清楚
3.) 家庭成员: 你要知道这个做什么
4.) 皮肤颜色: 跟你一样喽~ 难道是绿色还是紫色吗?
5.) 身高: 比姚明矮一点
6.) 曾经最难过的时候: 仿佛失去一切的时候
7.) 何时感到最快乐:. 好像没什么快乐的时候
8.) 喜欢的音乐家: 周董， JJ
9.) 常去的地方:. 厕所
10.) 最常在什么时候看电影: 买完票后
11.) 告诉我们你名字的意思: 问我老爸老妈吧，是他们给我取的
12.) 你是怎样的人: 聪明伶俐，善解人意，孤僻
13.) 在KTV喜欢唱的歌: 太多了啦
14.) 初恋: 李小姐 6 年前的事啦！
15.) 初吻: 讨厌! 别问
16.) 喜欢的电影: 好看的
17.) 喜欢的花: 如花算吗？
18.) 喜欢的电视节目: 能让我哈哈大笑或让我痛哭流涕的
20.) 喜欢的书: 爱情的
21.) 想去的地方: 阿拉斯加
22.) 喜欢的食物: 我很挑，好吃的才吃
23.) 喜欢的水果: 我说了你又不会买给我吃
24.) 喜欢的颜色: 粉红色
25.) 做过最棒的事: 太多啦！
26.) 你最重要的东西: 手机
27.) 想说的话: 闭上眼睛，忍住泪别哭泣，末日前夕，请留在我怀里，看太阳暗去月光失明，我只想牵你的指尖，绕地球最后一圈，黑夜降临，别害怕我爱你，末日前夕，请留在我怀里，我，在这世界最眷恋的事情就，是曾拥抱你
28.) 记得的人:. 我还没失忆，谁都记得
29.) 想到的人: 她
30.) 如果死掉: 我不想死
31.) 优点: 没什么缺点
32.) 缺点: 没什么优点
33.) 尊敬的人:. 空缺中．．．．
34.) 理想中的生日礼物:不知道，我好像没受过什么生日礼物。
37.) 嗜好: 上床。哈哈，真好笑。睡觉啦！别想歪
38.) 专长: 哎哟，你要我自己讲自己的专长我哪好意思啊 ><
39.) 习惯: 自己一个人
40.)想为心爱的人做什么: 做爱................. 心便当
41.) 希望从心爱的人那里得到的东西:.被需要的感觉
42.) 想与心爱的人一起做的事: 读过一些quality time。grown up bonding session you noe！
43.) 珍贵的东西: 空缺中。。。
44.) 喜欢的动物: 狗狗
45.) 你的穿着如何: 平淡
46.) 讨厌的人: 讨人厌的人喽
47.) 何时的我看起来是软弱的: 哭的时候
48.) 纾解压力的方式: 睡觉，凡一定睡不着
49.) 当我伤害某人: 我会事后内疚
50.) 觉得镜中的自己如何: 帅到要喷血
51.) 最后悔的事: 你给我2万块我就跟你说
52.) 想要几个小孩: 孤掌难鸣。我要624,964,903个，　女方也要肯生。
53.) 手机问候语: HELLO
54.) 今天天气如何: 哗啦啦啦啦下雨了
55.) 喜欢的数字. ２３
56.) 酒量: 没醉过
57.) 有翘家过吗: 好像没有
59.) 理想中的伴侣: 温柔的，了解我的，成熟的，专情的，有女人味，但却好动，爱体育
60.) 想对朋友说: 我爱你们
61.) 想吃的东西:　没什么
62.) 个性: 难以琢磨
63.) 上洗手间的次数: 谁会去记这种东西啊
64.) 宗教: 基督教 & 睡觉　＝）
65.) "给予"或是"得到": 要得到就得给予
66.) 最值得纪念的一天: 暂时没有
67.) 喜欢的衣服款式: 我不是追求名牌的有钱小少爷
68.) 睡眠时间:　少之又少
69.) 什么时候会讨厌自己:　人要懂得自爱
70.) 当我发现自己是拥有能让大众信服或热烈拥护的权威或领袖气质时: 哇，那一长串东西是什么??
71.) 独自一个人的时候会做什么: 想很多很多的事情
73.) 当你注视别人时会注意哪里: 头发，脸，身高，体形。女生-腿
74.) 目前为止对于你的生活: 满意
75.) 对于自己的情结: huh? 我不懂你在讲什么
76.) 喜欢爸爸还是妈妈: 你想挑拨离间是吗
77.) 当你与某人打架: 我这么善良，哪会打架？
78.) 有某人不想跟你在一起: 有谁会不想跟我在一起啊??
79.) 如果心爱的人得了重病: 会守在她身边。。一直握着他的手
80.) 如果双亲不喜欢你喜欢的人: 跟爱人私奔
81.) 做完这份问答后要做什么?:睡觉咯。反正现在在公司也没什么事做。
82.) 对于恋人有什么感觉: 费话，当然是爱啦
83.) 绰号:阿聪，ｏｎｉｏｎ
84.) 现在在你旁边有什么：女鬼........你旁边好像也有
85.) 想要看的电影: 最近对电影太多了都要看！
86.) 印象最深刻的电影:小孩不笨。“看不到你眼里的泪滴，只听到你坚强的呼吸。。。 ”
87.) 最常见到的人: 这还用问，家人la!　
88.) 喜欢的运动: 乒乓
89.) 现在头发的样子: 乱七八糟，反正没人看
90.) 真实的自己: 有时自己也搞不懂自己
91.) 你的包包里面有些什么: 钱包lor (偶很穷不要打劫我)
92.) 有多少卡: 834，904，756 张　游戏卡也算。
９3.)什么时候会感到难过: 难过的时候
94.) 不喜欢的女生类型: 化妆化得像要唱歌台的或那种风流&装可爱的
95.) 不喜欢的人: 不记得
96.) 想活到几岁: 到我不想活为止
97.) 如果赢得一百万: 你觉得有可能吗
98.) 推荐的歌: 周董　－世界末日，黑色幽默
99.) 感言: 谢天谢地这是最后第二道题了
100.) 现在时间：早上　９　点３９　分

blogging

2007-12-02T21:50:00.000-08:00

haha.. havent been blogging to close to a mth now.
now blogging at my work place cause i finished all the work and there is just nothing to do.
currently working at catholic high school as a front desk officer, while doing some admin matters whenever necessary.

Guess that A levels are ok la. even know for sure i will not get straight A's for a level,
hopefully i can get at least straight B's for a levels.

Very sad that jia en have left ben n jerrys.
even though we are always on loggerheads, she is still a great great friend and collegue to work with.

i decided to not colour my hair like everyone else. must be unique man. =)

just came back from indo doing cip trip.
went with SAJC ocip trip and even though cannot finish the work, we still did a great job.
Painting wall murals, making library to playing soccer with the kids, it was real fun =)

I think that what really spurred me on was my first ever trip to vietnam with catholic high school. Really will try to go every year.

Even thou this team that went overseas with me was hmm...
evaluation la- i think everyone is efficent yes
but the prob is that they dunno how to cover up for each other.
* the incident that happened*
k nvm its over.
conclusion is that i had a fun time =)

so "looking forward" to my routine life from now on.
work and work and work and work

sigh,

maths paper

2007-11-02T07:46:00.000-07:00

I finally understood what all my seniors meant my
maths need to 靠stats.
pure maths was a total screw up.
28 marks gone.
sigh
BUT IF NO CARELESS SHOULD BE A!
WAHAHA. THE REST ALL CAN DO! =)
20 more days to go
gambatte neh!

i'm going jay chou concert! wooo! good seats!

handphone

2007-11-01T06:20:00.000-07:00

haha.. so malu, my handphone actually rang dung a levels gp paper.
turn out that i forgot to turn of my alarm clock! lol
so the teachers have to take out phone from my bag and turn it off. LOL!

lame stuff

2007-10-31T09:04:00.000-07:00

Proof:
We know that
a) Time is Money
b) Knowledge is Power
and from Physic
c) Power = Work / Time

By simple substitution:
Knowledge = Work / Money
Knowledge * Money = Work
Money = Work / Knowledge
It follows that as knowledge goes to 0, money goes to infinity

lol

here are some lame stuff verified by proving

Theorem = A cat has 9 tails
Proof: since no cat have 8 tails, and a cat have 1 more tail than no cat, therefore a cat have 9 tails.

Theorem : 3 = 4

Proof = Suppose A + B = C

i can write it as

4A - 3A + 4B - 3B = 4C - 3C
4A + 4B - 4C = 3A + 3B - 3C
4 ( A+ B + C) = 3(A + B + C)
cancel
4 = 3

gp

2007-10-31T06:20:00.000-07:00

Officially screwed 1 subject.
gp was easy! from our perspective.
But when i called miss soh,
she said it was a very challenging paper.
MY essay was too narrow.
" Can the believe in supernatural be sustained in todays world?"
i wrote supernatural = religion
too narrow.

Summary was screwed.
so is AQ.

so everything sucks.

Saw this joke that made my day.

Study = No fail ---- eqn 1
no study = fail ---- eqn 2

eqn 1 + eqn 2

No study + study = No fail + fail
Study ( No + 1) = Fail ( no + 1 )

Divide both side by ( No + 1)

Study = Fail

=X

sad

2007-10-30T08:03:00.000-07:00

Had to leave early from the company function today.
So Sad.
nvr get to enjoy anything.
really really sad
so what if i won the most passionate scoopy award? =(

emo stories

2007-10-29T09:01:00.001-07:00

有个女孩非常希望能看见自己的男朋友的眼泪，那个坚强的男人从未在她面前流过泪，日子一年年的过去，他们的幸福让女孩愈加好奇男人的眼泪，他究竟什么时候才会哭一次呢？“傻瓜，别试着想看见我的泪，真有那一天，那么肯定是有非常悲痛的事情发生。”他懂她的小心眼，却又忍不住笑她的纯真。女孩的好奇得不到满足，她想知道男人的眼泪是什么样的，究竟是苦是咸？上天给了她机会，天使光顾了她的家。

“真的想看见他的眼泪吗？”天使问她。
“能有办法吗？”
“可以，不过你会消失几天。”
“我上哪儿去了呢？”
“变成了空气中的水，但你能时刻陪着他，看着他，你愿意吗？”

女孩瞬间变成了空气中的水，一切变得新鲜。先看看他现在在干什么。停靠在男人房前的窗户上，她看见男人正在辛勤地工作，计算数据，制作图表，忙得不亦乐乎。忽然他走到了电话机前，她想起每天晚上10点他们都会通个电话，他打不通电话会怎么样呢？她愈发好奇，瞪大眼睛看着。果然他拨了好多次都没人回应，这么早就睡了？让她睡个好觉吧，男人嘴角浮现出温柔的笑容。她却有点失望，为什么不着急呢？

第二天，男人准时上班下班，忙碌了一天，回到家马上又给女孩打了个电话，仍然无人应答。男人开始不停打电话，打遍了所有朋友和亲戚的电话，没有人知道女孩去了哪里。男人似乎有点急了，在房间里走来走去，她在窗口有些幸灾乐祸。

男人穿起外套，甩门而出，她紧随其后。

先来到了女孩的家，大门紧闭，邻居说昨天晚上就没见到她。女孩父母的家中，两个老人以为他们俩在一起，看着二老鬓角斑白，他不忍告诉老人她失踪了。看着他眼角的焦急，她有点后悔了。

整个晚上，他没睡觉，他找遍了所有他们约会过的地方，到处都有她的身影，可又找不到她。一夜的奔波让他憔悴了一大圈，连他一向整洁引以为豪的下巴也长出了胡子。他累了，瘫倒在沙发上。她忍不住想摸摸他的胡子渣，想给他盖条被子，可她只是空气中的水啊！她想对天使说，我不想看见他的泪了，让我变回人吧！可天使没有再光顾她的家。

第三天，男人依然要上班，可是眼里没有了以前的光彩，走着路会突然转过身找什么，她以为他发现了自己，可她只是透明的水气啊！她只能笑自己的纯真。男人下班后不再直接回家，来到了他们约会的老地方，那儿有棵老梧桐。他坐在梧桐树下的座椅上，显得那么孤单。他好象在想些什么，在等些什么。
“你会出现的，对吗？”

第四天，男人又来到了这里，并带来了一块小玻璃石，里面还有一艘小帆船。他不发一言，只呆呆地望着玻璃石。她想起他们说好以后要一起出海旅行。

第五天，男人没来，她在他的床上找到了他，他在睡觉吗？看着他苍白无神的脸，她心痛地快死去，天使，你归来吧！

第六天，男人把玻璃石扔进了大海，让他的心一起沉入大海。她一阵心酸，天使，让我变回人吧！天使终于来到了她身边，

“太晚了，你马上就要离开这世界，和他吻别吧！”

她的泪瞬间落了下来，一周的消失就让他憔悴成这样，要是自己真的不在了，他该怎么办？她吻了吻他的唇，发现他的唇上有了一滴泪，那就是自己。原来男人的眼泪就是她！

她大声叫唤着，不，我不要离开……

还好，那只是一个梦，她在庆幸的同时告诉自己，再也不要看见男人的眼泪了，因为那便意味着自己的消失……

心爱的女人，在男人眼里，就是他的一切

世界末日

2007-10-29T08:23:00.000-07:00

想笑，来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头承认自己会怕黑
我只求能借一点时间来陪
你却连同情都不给
想哭来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界好像只有我疲惫
无所无所谓
反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞
天灰灰，会不会
让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑梦违背难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违
累不累，睡不睡
单影无人相依偎夜
越黑梦违背有谁来安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
或许颓废也是
另一种美

想哭，来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界好像只有我疲惫
无所无所谓
反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞
天灰灰，会不会
让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑梦违背难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违
累不累，睡不睡
单影无人相依偎
夜越黑梦违背有谁来安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
或许颓废也是
另一种美

a levels

2007-10-28T07:02:00.000-07:00

went escape with yang, chwee and nic today.
as every1 was late. =.=
went in late,
then rain,
then onli play 2 games. sian rite
tried to catch some soft toy for reb but cmi in the end.

Vincent was talking to me today.
HE made me realise that A levels is really really important to me.
haven been really really working hard.
what he said sort of like woke me up.
" a level is yr future! put in yr best effort. Onli got 1 chance. no retake!"
i'm going to pia like siao from tml!
although onli left with 1 week,
I KNOW I CAN MAKE IT!

fun

2007-10-27T06:49:00.001-07:00

went with nic and the sn ppl to the arcade to play mishi bashi today.
after that spent around twenty bucks to catch a soft toy for siyi and tried to catch 1 for reb.
That was when it daunted to me that $ was not everything.
use to slog my life away, aimlessly earning those little little $ doing part time.
As a result, because like, veri money consious and stuff like that.
today realised that if money can be used to buy fun and happiness.
It will DEFINITELY be $ well spent!
Cheer up ppl! 0 levels are going to be over =)

=)

2007-10-26T08:10:00.000-07:00

went blood donation today and it was damn painful.
dunno y.
the medical doc tell me sth funny/
i told him that i came for blood donation for gd luck
then he told me
on his 5th yr,
he nvr do blood donation
then he fail his exams!
lol
then 6 mth later, he pass
cause he went blood donation.

=) smiles

=)

2007-10-26T04:58:00.000-07:00

i;m in the lib now and i'm not studying =)

shocked

2007-10-23T08:42:00.000-07:00

shocked about what tze weiwei told me about him.
he's a disgrace to guys man.
bleah

2007-10-22T08:21:00.000-07:00

思念是种美丽的孤独，

也只有在思念的时候，孤独才显得特别美丽...

人生就好像五彩的调色盘，
让你随意配搭人生的色彩。
你要他红彤彤，
他就会无限的展现出艳丽得光芒。
但，
如果你把它抹成黑粑粑的，
他便成为漆黑黑的，深不见底。

伴随着不尽思念而来的必然是漫长的等待。
美国女诗人荻金森说：
“等待一万年不长，
如果终于有爱作为补偿。”
这真也可以说是一种思念中的忠贞与豁达。

岁月尽可以象落叶一样飘逝，
但这笔财富永存。
在你迢迢的人生旅途中，
它会永远陪伴着你，
给你绵绵不绝的温馨和取之不竭的力量。

上了初院后，
好多朋友都开始谈了恋爱。
我们开始渴望爱情，
拥抱爱情，
仰望着爱情的存在。
有很多人说，
爱情可以很复杂，很恼人。
它像是一个谜团，
只有让自己置身于其中，
才能领悟到它令人倾心的魔力。
但有更多人歌颂着爱情的伟大，
赞扬着它的美丽。
对他们而言，
一旦陷入了爱情的漩涡中，
将会无法自拔，
甚至越陷越深。
对于以上的爱情大哲理，
我却发无法完全苟同。
其实，爱可以很简单。

其实，轰轰烈烈的爱情，
就像天空中璀璨，
美丽的烟火，
如同昙花一现，
稍踵即逝。
人生中，所寻找的，
却是一个能和你私守着终生，
不管是在荣华富贵，
或是贫穷困苦时，
都能陪伴在身边的伴侣。

不喜欢看到身边的朋友和情人分手。
特别是那种真的很相配，
也知道他们两个人不是所谓的“只是玩玩的”那一类。

是否周围真的有太多诱惑。
太多的不确定，让现今的感情欠缺了安全感呢？

天有不测风云,
月有阴晴圆缺。
此时故难全，
但愿人长久，
千里共婵娟。

hair dyes

2007-10-19T07:52:00.000-07:00

funny how things work -

the colour of the yellowish blonde hair dye which i used last time - black
the colour of the black hair dye i used today - yellow =.=

a levels are coming
no time no time =(

dye hair

2007-10-16T08:00:00.000-07:00

I realized that most jc people are so shallow minded and innocent
today, i was lazy to spray my hair black, so i went to school wearing a cap.
As you know, wearing at cap is not veri comfortable,
so i decide to take off the cap when i was in the com lab and when i had gp consultation at lv 3.
then, jc ppl stared at me, and wispered, so loudy that i can hear.
" eh eh, that guy got brown hair."

hello hello, nvr see ppl dye hair before ar?
I dye hair yr problem ar?
You nvr dye hair before is yr prob la!
WTF!

Its like what hossan Leong said in his video.
singapore Guys are very innocent.
Dun dare to help wife by sanitary pad.
scared the shop assistant laugh at him.
Then dun dare to buy condom also.
Buy condom must buy with magazine and mentos.
So before making out will read home and deco, then eat mentos!
no wonder no babies!

y cant everyone be like miss Su or Miss Soh.
Miss Su didn mind. Still reminded me to tuck in my fringe into the cap so look less obvious.
Miss Soh just treated me like any ordinary student.
Thats the way.

Grats to RIN for getting A for maths!
the impossibe happened!

oh yang said:
being perfect is impossible.
Cause impossible is nothing.
and nothing is perfect!

supervisor

2007-10-14T08:46:00.000-07:00

i just hate the new supervisor.
ok. maybe hate is too strong a word.
dislike.
i just dislike the new supervisor.
stupid look down on me
think i got no $ pay for 4 pine of icecream
and think i so cheapo
wanna steal 4 pine of ice cream home.

i say i pay means i pay already.
no need to go check the nets slip see i got pay anot.
basket.

somemore always say i nvr do closing properly.
hello hello.
yr closing was absoultely sucky la.
those switch that is suppose to be off are not off
those switch that are suppose to be on are offed
glass door never lock
money count wrongly
make me malu infront of the bank ppl today.
idiot.

on a lighter note,
vince is absolutely crazy about sales!
lol.
called me at 2 pm
ask me make a cake,
which will be collected at 9pm!
ROFL!

will start studying tomorrow.
have to
dun have a choice
or i'll fail a levels,
Gambatte man!
need to discipline myself.

target for A levels

Bio: A
Maths : A
Chem: C
GSC: C
GP: D/E

aiming for nie teaching scholarship
=)
i can do it!

2007-10-11T09:37:00.000-07:00

be inspired by him

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGcQtzRITPw

i'm performing at hark music tml.
Because i'm inspired.
18 hrs time
stress
but i WILL
enjoy it...

oh btw,
Y and Z didnt make up
they still ignored each other like usual

last day of school

2007-10-10T08:06:00.000-07:00

The last official school day
The last chance to pon...
but i;m not going to do it..

For the first time this yr, i'm looking forward to go to school.
seriously its definitely not the last day of school
We'll still be going back, still be seeing each other again
Its not the end of the world
But then, i juz had this weird feeling
that my days here are really coming to an end

Things will never be the same from now on
Things that you do everyday...those normal lessons and breaks
Will be juz memories
Instead of counting down of A lvls,
I guess i should really be counting down to the end of my life here
And to cherish the remaining days
College life always seems short and fast, but memorable

也许时间能冲淡一切
但我不想一切被冲淡

SAJC might have more bad memories than good memories.
YES, until now, I Do agree that i have made the wrong choice into going into SAJC
it will be a regret, but something i will not be able to change.,

these days,
i realised that normally it's the events that take place
towards the end that count.
that's why you only see people mugging
before major exams and tests,
and why people choose to drag as long as possible.
by december people are more likely to remember what you did in
october rather than january.
so, pragmatically, wouldn't it be wiser
not to waste energy on assignments
which do not earn you as much recognition?

it's the "stock up for final showdown" mentality.
Y can be enemies with Z for most of the time,
but just before they part Y can be very nice to Z
and they'd suddenly become good friends for a long time,
or at least Z would have a very good impression of Y for a long time.

AS i have bolded the word " CAN BE".
it means, it may, or may not.
yes, u will definately wish that u have a better impression of those ppl whom u dislike,
and vice versa.
but, as i always say,
it is a 50% thing
they might, they might not.

But i dun give the fuck care.
Cause it doesn matter.

当你没有任何东西可以再失去时，你就不会再担心会失去你的所有。这时你才会全力以赴，不担心而勇敢往前。很多人在没有任何东西可以失去的时候才真正付出所有，因此成功。

in other words if you have nothing to begin with you will not fear losing. only then will you surge forward and get the best results.

there is negligible happy memories in SA,
but yes,
everything is about to end.

I think i'm out of point but ya
sth wierd is happening.
all these negliable memories made me want to go back to the fucked up sch for 1 last time.
to see all those bitches in class.

yang told me not to go,
but i told him,
i have pon sch for the last 3 weeks.
must go back to show all those bitches that i'm still alive.

yes, these bitches have misjudged me for the past 2 yrs.
they judge ppl by their looks.
they judge ppl by their set of rules.

i use to care about what ppl think.
but now i dun
cause it is enlightenment.

whats impt is what i think,
and i dun give a damn to other ppl .

Yes, i will go school tml.
cause i'm looking forward to live,
without seeing them ever again.
it may be fate that cause our life path to cross.
but i hope
that fate,
will nvr do that again.

no more peiwen, no more nizhen, no more fucking dao ppl, no more yalams, no more ah nehs..
it goes on

i noe i'm racist, i admit
but yes
i have good malay and indian friends too..

bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

story

2007-10-08T09:39:00.000-07:00

was feeling bored, so wrote another story,
sorry for those who cant understand chinese, but i onli can write in chinese

那天----是女孩的生日。

他送她一只透明的水晶瓶子----很美。

说：“每天放一枚硬币在这个瓶子里，用它去珍藏起你的快乐。

不久，你就会发现自己是个多么幸福的人。”

“如果存满了呢？”

“那就放在我的口袋里。”

“想得美！”女孩笑着说。与此同时，也从他眼睛里感觉到了一种从未有过的专注。

"做我的女友吧。每一枚硬币代表我爱你的每一天！”

他说着把一枚一元硬币轻轻放在女孩的手心。这太突然了，似乎有些不真实。他们是好朋友。

两人在一起总是很开心，他幽默帅气，是许多女孩心中的白马王子，但他对她们不屑一顾。

“难道这份感情是为我珍存的？”女孩心里这样想着。

手却先思维一步给出了答案，那枚硬币顺着手指滑落进瓶子，伴着清脆的响声，开始了一段甜蜜的储存。

那一年的情人节，他们去帮朋友的花店送花。娇艳的玫瑰带着祝福送到一对对情侣手中。

累----却很充实。忙了一天，车筐里还剩一枝玫瑰。

女孩核对着订单：“怎么多了一枝，应该送完才对呀？”

他笑了，说：“送给你的！”还有一盒心形的巧克力。

于是，在幸福浪漫的气息里，第13枚硬币滑进了水晶瓶子！

春天的大自然充满了生机，几个朋友相约去旅行，大概要八九天。

由于工作原因，他不能去。所以，女孩带上了他的爱----水晶瓶子。

那天，直到机场检票的那一刻，他才匆匆忙忙赶过来。

依旧是那个熟悉的笑容：“玩得开心点，我会想你的！”

上了飞机，女孩打开了他塞给她的手提袋，里面有她爱吃的零食、随身听备用电池、磁带，还有他的手提电话，上面贴了一张小纸条：

“你们出去玩，人生地不熟，带着电话，遇事方便。”

那一次，女孩在蔚蓝的天空中把第82枚硬币放进了水晶瓶子，并且坚信自己将是世界上最最幸福的人！

跟他在一起的日子是快乐、无忧无虑的。可是，有一次他几乎让女孩走到了绝望的边缘。

那个星期天，女孩起得很早，因为他周五去外地出差。

那天会坐早晨的高客回来，到了车站，有几辆车停在那，却不见他坐的那辆车。

后来问了总站，才知那辆车在高速上出了车祸，乘客都被送进了市医院。

女孩几乎失去了理智，找遍了整个医院，----都没有。于是，抱着最后一丝希望给他打电话。

突然，她听到了那熟悉的手机铃声，那声音发自旁边一个人的手中的透明塑料袋。

走近了，女孩几乎要昏过去，那里面正是他的手提电话，还沾了斑斑血迹。

刹那间，她的天空坍塌了，泪水如山洪一样涌出眼眶……

不知过了多久，隐约听见有人喊女孩的名字，是他。他正在跑前跑后地协助护理伤员。

她跑过去，顾不上许多了。他紧紧地抱住女孩轻轻安慰道：“没关系，只是一点皮外伤。”

“知道吗？刚才对于我来说像是过了一生之久。”女孩哽咽着说。

之后，他亲手把第396枚硬币放进了水晶瓶，并说他永远都不会离开女孩……

夜已经深了，女孩准备储存第727枚硬币。

可是，当她打开钱包却发现没有零币，怎么办？一种不安涌上来。

这时，电话响了，是他。沉默之后，终于开口：“我们分手吧，有另一个女孩为我存硬币了。”

女孩木然了：“如果我还有一枚硬币，你会多爱我一天吗？”他没出声……

第二天，女孩挥霍掉了那七百多元钱，也挥霍掉了他们曾经一起度过的七百多天。

可----最终还剩了一枚硬币，在瓶子里，静静的。

这是哪一天呢？是最初的承诺？还是两人携手淋雨的欢笑？或者是一起看流星的浪漫？

亦或者，这仅仅只是一枚硬币罢了…… …… ……

a levels is coming, but still no mood to study.
sian..
really must start soon

weekend

2007-09-30T07:02:00.000-07:00

i dyed my hair =)
did a technical hightlight
so became brown base and light brown highlight.
really dunno how to go sch tomorrow.
dunno y now whenever i work, i feel super guilty
cause i noe its time to study already.

i really damn pissed of with people who dont give u face when they scold you
esp when they scold u with NAR( no apparent reason) somore.

i think some girls are plain stupid.

This guy, called A broke up with his girlfriend B
and got attached with C.
Oneday, B was drunk, and she messaged A
" actually, i still miss u."
soon, C replied, "u think My guy will turn back, ditch me and go to you? so dont contact him again and FUCK OFF."

come on la C, if A will ditch B for another girl, u think A wont ditch u for another girl? dun be dumb.

going to cut down working to study.
i wanna get my scolarship

song

2007-09-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

translated from the 200 pound beauty song:

crawling to me like a dream,
my little star up high.
Dazzling my eyes,
shining brightly,
falling on my shoulders.
dont be sad anymore.
holding my hands tightly,
caressing my wound,
you embraces me warmly.
Too hurt for my legs to walk,
eyes so blurry with tears.
Before, love was never meant for me,
but i will keep on smiling.
Dear moments with you,
buried deep in my heart,
like those stars embroidered in my eyes,
i will love you forever...

LEE MEI FUNG! U BETTER BUCK UP! 12/65 IS DEFINATELY NONO FOR A LEVELS!

i can't wait for sch to end.. MUAHAHA.

YEE LING! STOP WATCHING ANIME AND STUDY MATHS!

going to work tomorrow..
guess that my mums feeling better make me less worried haha..
went to school from hospital today, and i was wearin my home clothes
and lots of ppl gave me wierd stares, and like
why he so extra?
these ppl nvr know..
there is a reason behind everything.
For those ppl who didn bother to understand me,
to hell with u..

2007-09-20T08:57:00.000-07:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Mum in hospital, Grandma in hospital, prelims like shit.. what else is worse.

I'm so disappointed with myself.

S for chem - even thou i study hell alot

C for maths - which is like shit, i expected A

zzz..

Bio A is alr impossible alr. so.. sian again

GSC - confrim fail. compo dunno how to do, compre also damn f up

Today, vince told me that company treating us to watch gold class movie.
But fk sian in the end cant watch cause the movie is M18! shit! =(

Does this sound veri rude? " eh MR ____, how much is the price for the polo shirt?"

he come and kp me say its veri rude la.. WTF!

2007-09-18T08:30:00.000-07:00

Prelims are over.. have to start to study for A levels.
i dun think i did well for prelims

andy 耍无聊泡网咖
jj 装犹豫像傻瓜
xx 你背后是你爸
buddy 谁有本事把到校花
尴尬前女友变你阿娜达
jj 陪着你喝到挂
xx 女孩们太伟大
什么都不怕只要我长大哦
快乐时候闹闹难过时候抱抱
认真时你不要来吵
从我们小小直到我们老老
玩伴伙伴就一些活宝

baby baby 将来我们都是
某个女孩唯一依靠
oh～ oh～有阳光的味道
baby baby 同样一种调调
一个暗号同类才收到
oh～ oh～碰肩膀的微笑

尴尬前女友变你阿娜达
jj 陪着你喝到挂
xx 女孩们太伟大
什么都不怕只要我长大哦
快乐时候闹闹难过时候抱抱
认真时你不要来吵
从我们小小直到我们老老
玩伴伙伴就一些活宝

baby baby 将来我们都是
某个女孩唯一依靠
oh～ oh～有阳光的味道
baby baby 同样一种调调
一个暗号同类才收到
oh～ oh～碰肩膀的微笑

baby baby 将来我们都是
某个女孩唯一依靠
oh～ oh～
baby baby 同样一种调调
一个暗号同类才收到
oh～ oh～碰肩膀的微笑

2007-09-11T08:14:00.001-07:00

How gentle is the rain
That falls softly on the meadow
Birds high above in the trees
Serenade the flowers with their melodies oh oh oh
See there beyond the hill
The bright color of the rainbow
Some magic from above
Made this day for us
Just to fall in love
Now I belong to you
From this day until forever
Just love me tenderly
And I'll give to you every part of me oh oh oh
Don't ever make me cry
Through long lonely nights without love
Be always true to me
Kept it stay in your heart eternally
Someday we shall return to this place upon
The meadow
We'll walk out in the rain
Hear the bird's above sing once again oh oh oh
You'll hold me in your arms
And say once again, you love me
And if your love is true
Everything will be just as wonderful

Prelims going to over, but SPE for music coming.
SPE for music end, then A level start.
when will the exmas end?

i told yeeleng that A level is lv 100 torture,
she say is lv1000 LOL.

881

2007-09-09T04:13:00.001-07:00

watched 881 today and here are really some good quotes from the movie:

人生就好像一出戏，
命运好坏由天地。
不要怨父母命不好，
不要怪社会不公平。

一人一半，感情不散。
一人分一点，港庆才会久。
一人一口，永远不分开。
this one don sound nice in chinese, hokkien then will rhyme! hear the blog song!!

做鬼都不灵 - to curse those slow ppl haha.. like mf!ＸＰ

不能解决的问题就要等，等久就是你的。　
qn, what if cant afford the time? like upcoming A LEVELS! =(

一个没有梦想的人，帮别人圆梦，也是不错。　－sounds like me =x

秘密是没有答案的。沉默的人，秘密最多。－me

我跟你们一样坚强，但，独自的时候，也有寂寞，无助的一面。- another me ='(

Real good quotes rite.. haha now give u all some nicer happier quite.

other quotes from other movies:

- There are plenty of ways to die, but you have to find a way to live.

- even the smallest light, shines in the darkness..

sad life

2007-09-03T09:16:00.000-07:00

i know i promised yang and ppl that i will not be complaining about life anymore. . but .. haiz.

ok anyway.. really quite fustrated with the things that are happening around me right now.

things are happening to the family, my studies are in a wreck, got no mood to study, every thing in my family is just upside down.

sigh. what keeps me on is Ben n Jerrys.

I know some ppl out there are complaining why i work so much etc etc..

its only recently that i realise that BNJ is not just a job to me. If not, why would i just go down to the shop anytime to see if they need help?

BNJ have been real great to me. Its where i can really put things down and work.

CANT WAIT TO MEET ALL THE NEW SCOOPIES! =)

big red button

2007-08-26T08:09:00.000-07:00

Put The Big Red Button on your site

2007-08-26T07:59:00.000-07:00

Some times, i wondered weather if i really enjoyed my life in SA.
Usually, the first answer would be a firm no.
But now, thinking back, SA does have some nice memories after all.
OCIP, table tennis, HK trip..

I wondered:
How many times will i take 13 to school from now on?
How many times will i wear the uniform again?
How many times will i rot in my class bench?
How many times will i get to sleep in lecture and lessons?
How many times will i get council again?
How many times will i get asked to cut hair?
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.
.

I guess it will feel different
And you can't see some people everyday
Arghh...i dread thinking about the last day

Suddenly i feel a little emo, for obvious reasons
Maybe the pressure to mug can divert my attention away
from the nostagia and all that

也许时间能冲淡一切
但,
我不想一切被冲淡

I won't exactly said i enjoyed my JC life,
actually, i absolutely hated it.
As i always say, coming SA IS a regret.
However, there are little little things that one will miss.
And SA life is ending.
Its only when you lose it, then you start to treasure it
Its always like that
but it'll be too late
Thanks everyone(or maybe not everyone) , for all the memories and fun!

sheesh..

prelims

2007-08-26T05:15:00.000-07:00

tomorrow is the D day for prelims.. =.= haven really study enough yet..

thanks everyone for wishing me good luck..
but actually, more time will be more helpful thou =p

NSQ: ya.. i uber miss the shop too! haha.. this mth i think yr pay more than me la! and ya! will remb to treat you! =) coming back soon! cant wait to go back to the scoop shop.. XP

wasted money

2007-08-24T08:59:00.000-07:00

i wasted money today =x

i bought miss ye's giant calculator
bought a USB heater to heat drinks
bought spoons
ate sakae buffet
paid for grad night

fucking poor now

waiting for my nxt mth pay

love

2007-08-21T07:48:00.000-07:00

爱情是个奇迹，是上天恩赐的。
要在对的时间遇上对的人，而产生感情是不容易的。
所以要根珍惜在你身边的人。。。

brave story

2007-08-21T06:22:00.000-07:00

story plot:

Wataru is an ordinary 11-year-old kid whose world has just collapsed around him. His father has walked out on the family and his mother is in the hospital for attempted suicide. All he wants now is his old secure and comfortable life back. When a new student at his school tells him he can change his destiny by entering a magic gateway to another world called "Vision," Wataru literally leaps at the opportunity. All he needs to do is collect five magic gemstones that will lead him to the Tower of Fortune, and there he'll be granted any wish. But this is no simple treasure hunt and Wataru realizes that he'll need to summon every ounce of bravery in his mind and body to meet the physical and mental challenges that lie ahead. Before he can save his family, he'll need to battle a world of demons, his own friends and, ultimately, himself!

A must watch! rated better than spirited away. =)

was feeling sian and moody today so decided to go and watch movie myself. but in the end yang joined me. choose the show cause of the title. and it turned out to be veri nice.

Inspired! " accept our misfortunes, create our own destiny. "

blog songh

2007-08-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

decided to change blog song again! dun want to have the same song as pig. must create a fashion man!

加油加油加油加油加油加油
好男儿加油加油
hero 向前走
青蛙变王子的时候
yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh
好男儿加油加油
hero 笑傲游
站出来英雄般风流
yeah yeah yeah go
h.e.r.o 你是我的hero
h.e.r.o 你我一起加油
万千群芳为我呼吼
yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh
h.e.r.o 你是我的hero
h.e.r.o 你我一起加油
万千群芳为我呼吼
yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh 加油
加油加油加油加油加油
好男儿加油加油
hero 笑傲游
站出来英雄般风流
yeah yeah yeah go
h.e.r.o 你是我的hero
h.e.r.o 你我一起加油
万千群芳为我呼吼
yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh
h.e.r.o 你是我的hero
h.e.r.o 你我一起加油
万千群芳为我呼吼
yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh
h e r o
h.e.r.o 你是我的hero
h.e.r.o 你我一起加油
万千群芳为我呼吼
yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh
h.e.r.o 你是我的hero
h.e.r.o 你我一起加油
万千群芳为我呼吼
yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh
h.e.r.o 加油加油加油
h.e.r.o 加油加油加油
万千群芳为我呼吼
yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh 加油
加油加油加油加油加油加油

bnj

2007-08-18T09:42:00.001-07:00

super tiring today, nurul and hazel didn come to work cause hazel was sick and nurul got sth on.
3 ppl do closing really tiring.
scoop until hand wanna break alr.
anyway vincent let us take cab home =)

ben n jerry;s

2007-08-17T09:03:00.000-07:00

STUPID MEIFUNG NICKNAME IDIOT USELESS DUMB PIG!!

STOP COPYING MY BLOG SONG! IT IS SO UNSUITABLE FOR YR BLOG!

got a new ben n jerrys uniform today! it is pink and damn nice! love it!
i want to go fireworks festival, but got to work.
haha.. nurul's bf is jealous of ben n jerrys =]

oh, anyway it is time to announce this secret of mine..
actually, i have been attached for 5 mths le..
she is none other than...
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. VIVO BEN N JERRY'S! XP
my official new luv.

movie

2007-08-15T05:10:00.000-07:00

watch perfect stranger with yang and nic today. it was a nice movie, with some quotes that are etched in my head now.

" all that is needed to commit a murder is the right ingredients and the right time."
" show me a beautiful woman and i'll show u a man who is tired of fucking her."

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

夜已黑，人已去，泪已干，心已冷，烟已尽，人已麻木！　　

beautiful girl

2007-08-13T04:13:00.001-07:00

Chorus:
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

Verse 1:
See it started at the park
Used to chill at the dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Cause we both thought
That love lasts forever (lasts forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)

Refrain:
See it's very define, girl
One of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You walk to get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy

(Repeat Chorus)

Verse 2:
It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)

(Repeat Refrain and Chorus)

Verse 3:
Now we're fussin'
And now we're fightin'
Please tell me why
I'm feelin' slightin'
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' with my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal...

ben n jerrys

2007-08-12T07:24:00.000-07:00

com spoil for the pass few days.. so finally repaired ok and decided to blog..

Pauline aka PAU and the case of the lost MOP bucket!

one fine sunday night, our dear miss PAU decided to go to the toilet to empty the dirty water in out little green MOP bucket! Due to her tiredness, and mostly blurness, our dear Pau left the mop bucket in the toilet after emptying the water =x

The next day, when our boss vincent decided to MOP the floor, LOL and BEHOLD! the MOp bucket was stolen! Vincent was angry and he asked around for the lost Mop bucket. Soon, he instructed Kelvin to buy a new blue MOP bucket, which cost $8.95. Just one day after the new blue mop bucket was bought, PAU came to work. It was then that she remembered that she left the MOP bucket in the toilet! Everyone laugh and laugh and laugh.

SO, PAU and cecillia decided to ask the china cleaning auntie for the green old mop bucket. However, being greedy, the auntie decided to stole and keep the mop bucket to herself. So, she replied untruthfully " i was off on sat and sunday. "

accidently, when PAU and cecillia went to the toilet again at night. OUt of curiosity, they decided to take a peek in to the cleaning lady's store room!

LO and BEHOLD! the green mop bucket is there. SO together with kel, they went back to steal the stolen mop bucket.

So now, Ben n jerrys have 2 mop buckets! and1 mop =x

lol

cat high performance

2007-08-03T09:03:00.000-07:00

cat high performance was a success! tiring thou

ocip

2007-07-30T08:19:00.000-07:00

OCIP camp is over! i like shouting at j1's haha..
scarstic me!

anyway.. i dun like jiayi! cause she keep bitching me..
always ask me do sai kung!

oh congrats to NURUL! exp. leader!

Death is but crossing the world, as friends do the sea, they live in one another still. For they must needs be present, that love and live in that which is omnipresent. In this divine glass they see face to face; and their converse is free, as well as pure This is the comfort of friends, that thou they may be said to die, yet their friendship and society are, in the best sense, ever present, because immortal .

William Penn, more fruits of solitude.

ai yi ge ren

2007-07-20T08:57:00.001-07:00

爱一个人，全心全意地去爱她，付出了所有的一切，到最后，换来的是一次又一次的伤害。

爱一个人，每当你想放弃时，只要你一看到她，你又会再一次心软，心动，又会情不自禁地想要跟她说话。

爱一个人，你心里想着，只要对方开心，自己就会开心，其他的都无所谓，但是当你看见她开心的更其他男人说话，你的心就会鼓起一阵寒酸。

爱一个人，你心里其实有无穷无尽的话想要对她说，但是你还得假装对她毫不在乎，默默地压抑自己的感觉。

爱一个人，你跟她经历了许多许多，但是最后，这些回忆对她来说，可能根本就算不上什么。

爱一个人，你不知道你从前所为她做的一切到底值不值得，但是如果可以再选一次，你还是会选择帮她。

爱一个人，没有分对与错，一切都凭自己的感觉走，走错了，也不后悔。

爱一个人，有时候真的不知道自己应该怎么做，心里真的真的很乱，但又不知道如何告诉别人你的烦恼，告诉了，又有几个能够明白。

爱一个人，当然想跟她度过一生一世，在一起的日子，希望时间永远停留。

爱一个人，有时候，真的很累很累，心力交瘁，不知道自己还能支持多久。

我真的不知道，如何说出我心里的话。
其实，我还是很爱很爱你的。
但是，你知道吗？

sian

2007-07-20T08:51:00.000-07:00

wanted to play arcade, but in the end cant.. sad

steamboat was quite sian today...

looking forward to tml.. Harry potter!

emo stories again

2007-07-16T07:26:00.000-07:00

Wrote some emo stories again..

因为, 只有和你在一起时我才能感觉到幸福感
因为, 你就是个精灵,古灵精怪,让我欢喜让我愁
因为, 你是我唯一一个绝不后悔付出真感情的人
因为, 你没有缺点,或是有,只是我已经习惯了,并从不曾把其视为缺点
因为, 你是影响我最大的人,你的话我都听
因为, 我的心灵密锁只有你知道密码
因为, 只有你,能让我相信爱情
因为, 我的心事只想和你一起分享
因为, 每当想起你,都会笑得很开心
因为, 能和你在一起,我已经没有追求了
因为, 你是第一个骂我傻蛋,而我却傻傻笑得很开心
因为, 不小心让你生气了,我会很难过
因为, 你笑起来的时候,眼睛眯成一条缝让我特想吻你
因为, 没有你,我的太阳升不起来
因为, 你是我这辈子最最最在乎的人
因为, 我要陪你过你每一个生日和情人节
因为, 我想你,会失眠
~~因为, 我知道你也爱我~~
因为, 你不开心的时候,我会想尽办法哄你开心
因为, 只对你讲笑话,哄你开心
因为, 早上起床后第一个想到的人是你,晚上上床睡觉时想的也是你,梦里都是你
因为, 你很美
因为, 你的眼睛很迷人
因为, 你的一举一动牵动我的心
因为, 上天把你和我安排在一起
因为, 我想让你成为世界上最幸福的女人
因为, 我想让所有男生都嫉妒我
因为, 我找不出你的缺点
因为, 你是唯一可以让我倾吐的人
因为, 你是唯一可以让我信任的人
因为, 你是让我全心全意想付出的人
因为, 有你,我感觉世界很美好
因为, 我喜欢你高兴开心时的样子
因为, 你能让我上天堂或是下地狱
因为, 你让我觉得生命原来可以这样快乐
因为, 我想偿还上辈子欠你的债
因为,我想缠着你,保护你
因为, 为你我愿意去研究一切和你有关系的事
因为, 现在不想吃饭,想你
因为, 我已经没有别的法子来感动你
因为, 今生有你,别无他求
因为, 没有人可以让我想到这么多理由
因为, 我爱你,只爱你,天可为证,海可为誓
因为, 一时间我只能想到这些理由,如果时间可以给我久一点,我相信我可以想出更多的
因为, 和你在一起,我们的经历比连续剧还曲折
因为, 我们现在还在一起
因为, 我们以后也会在一起
因为, 我答应做你永远的宝
因为, 你是我永远的宝贝,一生的亲爱
因为, 种种的种种都是缘自我的心
因为, 我实在不想收笔了
因为, 我不得不收笔了,不然字数太多,他们不让我发表了
因为, 我爱你

所以,别问我为什么爱你,爱你真的不需要理由

sian

2007-07-16T07:24:00.001-07:00

dunno why.. i dun feel like going to school everyday! sian =(

work

2007-07-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

hmm... felt like blogging about some stuff.. haha.. shall just talk about some random stuff...

realise that i haven really blogged about my work...

actually, work so long at bnj already, just realise that although the work looks easy, actually quite tiring de.

esp hate these type of customers

he says: i want this. " points to the ice cream and quickly take away".

i say: which one?

he says" oh, that one lor"

walau, we cant see yr finger ok!!

2nd type of customer:

he says: excuse me, can i try this,
he says: excuse me, can i try that,
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.
.
. this repeats for more than 10 times

3rd type of customers:

he says" excuse me, do u noe where is____.

we are not information counters! *&^%^&*

BASICALLY, i like work alot!! =)

contrustingly, really dislike going to sch..
just dun really have alot of friends in sch la.
can't click with alot of ppl..
all too angmoh already..

the truth is" i dislike my class"

sian.. cant wait to get out of JC.

just realise that me n nurul actually have the same mindset:

WE LOVE WORK cause working actually helps us spend time so that we will not think about the negative stuff our fellow "friends" in sch talk about us. FUrthermore, we need the allowance!

speaking of work, i;m still quite scared of Ah Tung! haha.. she is a much better scooper and she commands respect! =)

oh well.. doupt u all know who Ah Tung is.

Anyway, i once have a thinking that i would want to spend some money to buy the class a double scoop of ice cream during the last day of school..

oh well.. should i? i dun like them anyway..

going to pon school tml, dun feel like going. RAther study outside myself

new phone

2007-07-07T09:32:00.000-07:00

I bought new phone! haha.. very nice! but difficult to use.. =(
went out with xuefen today la..
suppose to watch movie but in the end everywhere full..
so went to eat bk..
shock no 1: xf ate her first bk in her entire life! haha..
after that walked her home..
shock no 2: XF GOES CLUBBING!!!! haha.. cant imagine..
kena niam by parents to slp early again.. sianz

b n j

2007-07-01T08:24:00.000-07:00

hmm.. mid week of exams.. i think i fail everything...

Ben n Jerry's got 3 new flavors! Mango Mango, Pineapple n Lemonade! all veri nice! =]

cant wait for exam to end

bt 2

2007-06-24T07:17:00.000-07:00

bt 2's coming.. and i haven start preparing yet..

life sucks

life path

2007-06-21T08:39:00.001-07:00

Your Life Path is 4

Your Life Path (sometimes called Destiny) is derived from your birth date. Your Life path is the road you are traveling. It reveals the opportunities and challenges you will face in life. Your Life Path number is the single most important information available in your Personality Chart!

You are practical, down to earth with strong ideas about right and wrong. You are orderly and organized, systematic and controlled, you are decisive and methodical employing a step by step rational approach to problems solving. Once committed you do not give up easily!

You are not one for "get rich quick" schemes. Rather you use hard work and long hours to build a business or career- you seek to establish a solid foundation. Precise, tenacious and persevering, you have great potential for success, but only after putting out effort and overcoming the limitations you so often encounter. Justice and honesty are sacred to you. You are reliable and dependable, a cornerstone in the community. Though not an idealist, you are willing to work for a better world in a realistic way. However, you can be rigid in your ideas and sometimes too quick in judging your fellow man. You are loyal to those you love and work well with others. . It is important that while being part of a team you have your own responsibility and well- defined task, you perform better when your responsibilities are not overlapping with those of others. You have to be careful not to be bossy and rude. You possess rare discipline and perseverance and not everyone can keep up with you.

You can handle money carefully and like the security of a nest egg. Your love of work often leads you into a career early in life. Because of your methodical nature you can easily become rigid and stuck in convention. You can also be overly cautious when changes are necessary, this can cause you to miss opportunities that present themselves . You must cultivate flexibility in your character. You are well suited for marriage and often become a responsible loving parent. However, anything that violates your profound sense of order, such as separation or divorce can be a shattering experience for you. You easily become obsessed and even vengeful, seeking your own definition of justice.

You are courageous and a true survivor. You are a builder and the foundation of any enterprise. Your hard work and practical, traditional values pay off to provide you with the rewards you seek and deserve

long time no blog

2007-06-20T21:30:00.000-07:00

Haven been blogging for a long time.. decided to blog cause i was bored..

well.. lets start of with the shanghai trip at the start of the mth..
went to shanghai for a table tennis exchange, Although the happy thing is that we won, however, wasn very happy as some of my closer friends in table tennis didn go. during the trip, i was actually hoppin to go home asap.. missing ben n jerrys like mad!!!

after i came back, really had a shortage of people at ben n jerrys. was working approximately about 6 shifts a week.. but i was fun and enjoyable! really love ben n jerrys!

anyway.. recently have been hangi ng out with nic, yang alot... really glad to have them as my ff! haha.. lots of guys talk.. and also spend alot of money la... anyway.. nic talk about the numerology thing... so who is compatible with who.. anyway so here is the result! i'm 4 btw..

4 and 7: This is a relationship that has a serious tone about it and may be driven by a mutual need for security. It is loyal and devoted, even it it may lack the fire and passion of some combinations. The 4 is a natural provider of rock solid security and home values. The 7 provides a quest for continued mental development and adventure. The combination makes life both secure and yet more interesting for both.

my previous relationship: 2 and 4: This is a steady pairing resulting in comfort personified. When it comes to home and family, the 4 is the ultimate builder and provider. Security is 4's forte. Nothing is more appealing to the 2 than home, hearth, and family. The only difficulty likely here is one of perception. The 2 needs love to be shown and always physically apparent, and the 4 is sometimes not so demonstrative.

lol..

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it so hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

2007-05-23T20:51:00.001-07:00

created a new ice cream flavour for my dear harks friends:

harks flavoured ice cream

vanilla ice cream with fudge coated yuk ki, white chocolate roslyn, dark chocolate wei long, natellie shapped almonds, anthony shapped walnuts coated with alex shapped rainbow sprinke on top of a kelvin shapped cone! =)

sounds yummy!

harks outing

2007-05-23T11:24:00.000-07:00

worked opening shift yest and today and it was real fun! =) the pace of the business wasn't as fast as closing and we have more time to do our own stuff. =)

however, the waffle machine spoil today! so it was expectionally boring cause no need to make waffles! somemore today got 3 ppl do opening... super slack..

anyway.. yuk and ros came to vivo and we ate and vivo.. pressured her to talk about the mysterious guy but.. oh well..

champions league starting soon.. tired..

2007-05-15T05:20:00.000-07:00

You Are Phish Food Ice Cream

You've been described as gooey and fudgey. Sorry.

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

who cares if i'm gooey and fudgey? haha
Phish food is my favourite flavour! for now..

Phish food - Chocolate ice cream with gooey mashmellows, caramel swirl and fudge fish!
now with fudge cow too! =)

问世间情为何物,直教生死相许? 天南地北双飞客,老翅几回寒暑? 欢乐聚,离别苦,就中更有痴儿女,君应有语,渺万里层云,千山暮雪,只影向谁去？

2007-05-11T09:42:00.000-07:00

thanks TYS for the cake! it was beautiful! =)

celebrate brenna's birthdaytoday.. and it was fun..

i dun like work today...

morning have to clean the shop, then afternoon pack the stall.. sian half..

anyway.. the old scoopies and new scoopies misunderstanding have been cleared!
happyhappy!

i love my chinese stories =)

世界上最远的距离
是鱼和飞鸟的距离
一个在天，一个却深潜海底
―――泰戈尔

女孩和男孩正处在恋爱的季节。每次打电话，两个人总要缠缠绵绵许久。　

末了，总是女孩在一句极为不舍的“再见”中先收了线，男孩再慢慢感受空气中剩余的温馨，还有那份难舍难分的淡淡情愁……　

后来，两人分手了。女孩很快就有了新男友，帅气，豪爽。女孩感到很满足，也很得意。后来，她渐渐感到，他们之间好像缺些什么，这份不安一直让她有种淡淡的失落。是什么呢？她不明白。只是两人通话结束时，女孩总感觉自己的“再见”才说了一半，那边“叭”的一声挂线。每当那时，她总感到刺耳的声音在空气中凝结成冰，划过自己的耳膜。她仿佛感到，新男友像一只断线的风筝，自己那无力的手总也牵不稳那根无望的线。　

终于有一天，女孩和他大吵了一架。男友很不耐烦的转身走了。女孩没有哭，似有一种解脱的感觉。　

一天，女孩又想起最初的男孩，心中涌起一份感动：那位听完她“再见“的傻男孩。这种感动让她慢慢拿起电话。男孩的声音依旧质朴，波澜不惊。女孩竟无语凝噎，慌忙中说“再见”……这回女孩没有收线，一股莫名的情绪让她静静聆听电话那端的沉寂。　

不知过了多久，男孩的声音传了过来，你为什么不挂电话？　
女孩的嗓音涩涩的，为什么要我先挂呢？　

习惯了。男孩平静的说，我喜欢你先挂电话，这样我才放心。

可是后挂线的人总是有些遗憾和失落的。女孩的声音有些颤抖。所以我宁愿把这份失落留给自己，只要你开心就好。女孩终于抑制不住哭了，滚烫的泪水浸湿了脑海中有关爱的记忆。她终于明白，没有耐心听完她最后一句话的人，不是她一生的守望者。

原来爱情有时候就这么简单，一个守候，便能说明一切...

你看到我的守候吗？

sushi

2007-04-30T08:38:00.001-07:00

hmm.. accompanied yuyang to acer service centre today! its at some super ulu place la! juroung business park! still quite shock that there are so many ppl there to service com! but hte service there was good! the person just replace the spoilt LCD screen for her instantly instead of collecting back and asking her to come back some other day.. like what nokia always do! irritatin nokia..

anyway.. she treated me to SAKAE sushi because of that la! so nice! thanks yuyang!

quotes " a mathematician is some one who will say that, when 3 ppl are in a room, but 5 people come out, 2 will have to go in to make the room empty.. "

haha.. =)

love

2007-04-21T02:16:00.001-07:00

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional.You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it.You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out.
Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable.Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there.You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

What's" the Part of You That No One Sees?

2007-04-20T20:03:00.000-07:00

Some quotes with translation: I think ppl are complaining that i blog in chinese! haha =)
but the chinese ones are more meaningful =) cause my english not that good la sry!

i love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. 　　
我爱你，不是因为你是一个怎样的人，而是因为我喜欢与你在一起时的感觉。　　

No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry. 　　
没有人值得你流泪，值得让你这么做的人不会让你哭泣。　　

The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. 失去某人，最糟糕的莫过于，他近在身旁，却犹如远在天边。　　

Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. 　　
纵然伤心，也不要愁眉不展，因为你不知是谁会爱上你的笑容。　　

To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 　　
对于世界而言，你是一个人；但是对于某个人，你是他的整个世界。　　

Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 　　
不要为那些不愿在你身上花费时间的人而浪费你的时间。　　

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. 　　
爱你的人如果没有按你所希望的方式来爱你，那并不代表他们没有全心全意地爱你。　　

Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. 　　
不要着急，最好的总会在最不经意的时候出现。　　

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful. 　　
在遇到梦中人之前，上天也许会安排我们先遇到别的人；在我们终于遇见心仪的人时，便应当心存感激。　　

Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 　　
不要因为结束而哭泣，微笑吧，为你的曾经拥有。

outing

2007-04-19T09:23:00.000-07:00

went out with jocelyn from B & J ( paiseh know quite a few jocelyn so must "label"
went to some bar at sumerset ( walau dunno how to spel), for a drink and ya.. her friends are nice! haha...

sian.. tml going to pon sch cause of sports day.. i wonder why schools like to waste time like that.. haha..

杯子和水

杯子：“我寂寞，我需要水，给我点水吧。”
主人：“好吧，拥有了想要的水，你就不寂寞了吗？”
杯子：“应该是吧。”

主人把开水倒进了杯子里。

水很热，杯子感到自己快被融化了，杯子想，这就是爱情的力量吧。
水变温了，杯子感觉很舒服，杯子想，这就是生活的感觉吧。
水变凉了，杯子害怕了，怕什么他也不知道，杯子想，这就是失去的滋味吧。
水凉透了，杯子绝望了，杯子想，这就是缘分的“杰作”吧。

杯子：“主人，快把水倒出去，我不需要了。”
主人不在。杯子感觉自己压抑死了，可恶的水，凉凉的，放在心里，感觉好难过。
杯子奋力一晃，水终于走出了杯子心里，杯子好开心，突然，杯子掉在了地上。
杯子碎了，临死前，看见了，它心里的每一个地方都有水的痕迹，它才知道它爱水，它是如此的爱着水，可是，它再也无法把水完整的放在心里了。
杯子哭了，它的眼泪和水溶在一起，奢望着能用最后的力量再去爱水一次。

主人捡着杯子的碎片，一片割破了他的手指。指尖有血。

杯子笑了，爱情呀，到底是什么，难道只有经历了痛苦才知道珍惜吗？难道要到一切都无法挽回才说放弃吗？

table tennis

2007-04-18T05:47:00.000-07:00

WE BEAT HCI TODAY!
but it is nothing to be proud off.. i didn play..
yea.. so we are third. . whatever

girls lost to NY thou.. sad

anyway.. yest was ben & jerry's free cone day.. damn fun la..
although the queue wasnveri long, still scoop like siao! now hand pain le
and the new dip case damn cold.. so all e ice cream super hard.. really pity angie and
those who scoop chocolate fudge brownie cause it was damn hard..

i was taking care of two flavours, sweet cream and strawberry cheesecake! they quite soft la.. but still.. hand pain after digging for so long..

every1 was having fun la! really enjoyed and felt damn happy when i gave the ice cream to ppl and said " enjoy yr icecream!" and they will reply "thank you!" with a big smile! e feeling of giving is so damn shiok la! rawwks!

got few freinds who came and i gave them extra large scoops, like roy and yingxiu for example! all SA Ppl who i met get extra scoops too!]

after that boss let us pack e left overs and brought home..

packed 2 pines, and giving 1 to xuefen.. yea.. hope that will cheer her up!

sianz

2007-04-11T06:33:00.001-07:00

Dun think i will get to play again for the national competition again..
even thou this yr we might achieve overall 3rd, but getting the trophy doesn mean much to be..
yes, even though i did play, but i wasn an integral part of the team..

THE TROPHY IS MEANINGLESS! maybe i'll give it away or sth...

NY beast NJ today for this seasons biggest shocker!

wrote this out of frustration:
女孩和男孩正处在恋爱的季节。每次打电话，两个人总要缠缠绵绵许久。　

末了，总是女孩在一句极为不舍的“再见”中先收了线，男孩再慢慢感受空气中剩余的温　馨，还有那份难舍难分的淡淡情愁……　

后来，两人分手了。女孩很快就有了新男友，帅气，豪爽。女孩感到很满足，也很得意。后来，她渐渐感到，他们之间好像缺些什么，这份不安一直让她有种淡淡的失落。是什么呢？她不明白。只是两人通话结束时，女孩总感觉自己的“再见”才说了一半，那边“叭”的一声挂线。每当那时，她总感到刺耳的声音在空气中凝结成冰，划过自己的耳膜。她仿佛感到，新男友像一只断线的风筝，自己那无力的手总也牵不稳那根无望的线。　

终于有一天，女孩和他大吵了一架。男友很不耐烦的转身走了。女孩没有哭，似有一种解脱的感觉。　

一天，女孩又想起最初的男孩，心中涌起一份感动：那位听完她“再见“的傻男孩。这种　感动让她慢慢拿起电话。男孩的声音依旧质朴，波澜不惊。女孩竟无语凝噎，慌忙中说“再见”……这回女孩没有收线，一股莫名的情绪让她静静聆听电话那端的沉寂。　

不知过了多久，男孩的声音传了过来，你为什么不挂电话？　
女孩的嗓音涩涩的，为什么要我先挂呢？　

习惯了。男孩平静的说，我喜欢你先挂电话，这样我才放心。

可是后挂线的人总是有些遗憾和失落的。女孩的声音有些颤抖。所以我宁愿把这份失落留给自己，只要你开心就好。女孩终于抑制不住哭了，滚烫的泪水浸湿了脑海中有关爱的记忆。她终于明白，没有耐心听完她最后一句话的人，不是她一生的守望者。

原来爱情有时候就这么简单，一个守候，便能说明一切...

你看到我的守候吗？

ben n jerry

2007-04-10T08:12:00.000-07:00

working in Ben's and Jerry is really fun and enjoyable!
even thou the shift is longer than dian xiao er, time seems to pass more quickly!
and working seems more fun and enjoyable! YAY!

ice cream is still quite hard to scoop thou, especially those super soft ones.. like phish food =x

we were asked to remember the ice creams are made off, and some of the model answers given by the company are really damn lame..

for example:

peanut buttercup - peanut ice cream with peanut buttercups
chocolate chip cookie dough - vanilla ice cream with gobs of chocolate chip cookie dough
chocolate fudge brownie - chocolate ice cream with pieces of fudge brownie

and this is the classic:

vanilla - vanilla ice cream made from vanilla

lame shit!

nice story

2007-04-06T06:10:00.000-07:00

女孩问“下辈子，你想做男生，还是女生？”

男孩想了想“你呢，你先选，然后留下的那个答案就是我的答案？”

女孩想了想“我啊，我还是要做女生”

男孩笑了笑说“呵呵，你选了女生，那我还是男生好了！”

女孩很好奇，“为什么我选下的答案会是你的答案啊？”

男孩说“懒猪（女孩的外号），你不是说要赖着傻猪（男孩的外号）一辈子吗？这段感情除非你先放弃，否则我绝不退出，我不只要我们这辈子在一起，下辈子，下下辈子都在一起！”

女孩知道一辈子是好长好长，要让一段感情不变质的永远存在好难好难，但是她听了好感动。

女孩问“什么东西都让我先选吗？”

男孩回答“恩”

女孩调皮的说“这辈子老天重男轻女，它把什么优点都给了你，什么缺点都给了我，下辈子，我要跟你换换，把你的优点都给我，包括你那会读书的大脑，帅气的外貌，会唱歌的嗓子！”

男孩楞了一会说“啊~不会吧？那我不是浑身缺点了啊？”

听了这个回答，女孩心想“哼，还说什么喜欢我，还说什么疼我，分我几个优点都不肯，前面说的好听，看来我感动的太快了，现在狐狸尾巴露出来了”

男孩接着，小心翼翼的问“如果，我们真的换了，我是个浑身缺点的男生，你~，你还会喜欢上我吗？”

这时，女孩在心里为自己的任性，小心眼感到羞愧，男孩不是不肯跟她换优点，原来是怕到时候女孩看不上他，原来他是这么在乎女孩的啊！”

女孩的嘴角感觉到一种咸咸的味道，她知道，那叫幸福的眼泪！

有时候，男人可以为他们心爱的女人做任何事，放弃一切，他们不要求回报，只要求心爱的女人开心，快乐，他们就心满意足了。

my sex profile

2007-04-05T08:34:00.000-07:00

Kels SEx Profile... Quiz can be done by clicking here The scale below is an indication of where you fall in the male-female brain continuum. The results are based on the angles, spot the difference, 3D shapes and words tasks. Bear in mind that your performance may be affected by many factors in addition to gender, like age and intelligence.

Your personal brain score:

Average score for MEN who've taken this survey:

Average score for WOMEN who've taken this survey:

If you are using a public PC we strongly advise you to print out and delete your results if you do not want anyone to see them.

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	Angles
	This task tested your ability to identify the angle of a line by matching it with its twin. This is a spatial task, which looks at how you picture space. Your score: 13 out of 20 Average score for men: 15.1 out of 20 Average score for women: 13.3 out of 20 What does your result suggest? If you scored 0 - 12: You have more of a female brain. Scientists believe that people with a female brain find it more difficult to judge the slope of a line because they're not wired for spatial tasks. In past studies, 65 per cent of people who scored in this range were women. If you scored 13 - 17: You found this test neither hard nor easy. This suggests your brain has male and female traits when it comes to spatial ability. If you scored 18 - 20: You have more of a male brain. On average, men outperform women in this task and those with more mathematical knowledge tend to score quite high as well. In past studies, 60 per cent of the people in this range were men. Interestingly, men's testosterone levels fluctuate through the seasons and studies have shown that men's scores are lower in the spring, when their testosterone levels are at their lowest. Do our cave dwelling ancestors offer us any clues about why men and women score differently on this task? Find out more.
	Spot the difference
	This task tested your ability to identify which objects changed position. You lost points, if you incorrectly identified objects. Your score: 43% Average score for men: 39% Average score for women: 46% What does your score suggest? If you scored between 0 - 33%: You may have more of a male brain. Scientists say men tend to under perform in this task. The corpus callosum, the part of the brain that links the right and left hemispheres, is a fifth larger in women. This means women can process visual and other signals at the same time more easily than men. There is also a theory that oestrogen levels in women give them an added advantage in spatial memory. If you scored between 34 - 66%: You may have a balanced female-male brain. If you scored between 67 - 100%: Those with a female-type brain generally score in this range. Your ability to remember where objects are may serve as an advantage to you when you're trying to find your way around places. You're more capable of recalling landmarks to get from one place to another. Find out more about our spatial abilities.

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	Part 2

Hands

You said your left thumb was on top when you clasped your hands together.

Right thumb on top: This suggests the left half of your brain is dominant. Many studies have tried to establish whether there is a relationship between handedness and brain dominance. Some scientists believe that if you are left brain dominant, you would be more verbal and analytical.

Left thumb on top: This suggests the right half of your brain is dominant. Some studies theorise that as a right brain dominant person, you may excel in visual, spatial and intuitive processes.

However, these theories are debatable and leave much to be said about the small percentage of people who are ambidextrous.

Find out why right-brained people may be better fighters and artists.

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	Part 3

Emotions and Systems

This task looked at whether you prefer to empathise or systemise.

Empathising

Your empathy score is: 5 out of 20
Average score for men: 7.9 out of 20
Average score for women: 10.6 out of 20

What does your result suggest?

Empathisers are better at accurately judging other people's emotions and responding appropriately. If you scored 15 and above, you are very empathic and would be an ideal person to comfort people in a time of crisis. Women in general are better at empathising.

Systemising

Your systemising score is: 9 out of 20
Average score for men: 12.5 out of 20
Average score for women: 8.0 out of 20

What does your result suggest?

Systemisers prefer to investigate how systems work. A system can be a road map, flat pack furniture, or a mathematical equation – anything that follows a set of rules. A score of 15 and above suggests you're good at analysing or building systems. Men in general are better at systemising.

Scientists are keen to learn more about people who score high or low on both tests. They want to find out whether or not empathising and systemising are linked. Is a possible to make yourself more empathic?

Some scientists claim that our empathy and systemising abilities can be traced all the way back to prehistoric times. Find out more.

Eyes

This task tested your ability to judge people's emotions.

Your score: 5 out of 10
Average score for men: 6.6 out of 10
Average score for women: 6.6 out of 10

What does your result suggest?

If you scored 0 - 3: Do you think you're good at judging how another person is feeling? Your score suggests this doesn't come to you quite so naturally.

If you scored 4 - 6: Your result suggests you have a balanced female-male brain and find it neither easy nor difficult to judge people's emotions.

If you scored 7 - 10: Your result suggests you are a good empathiser, sensitive to other people's emotions. Women generally fall into this category.

Professor Baron-Cohen at the University of Cambridge says that people usually perform better than they expect to on this test.

Men often think a person's eyes are sending signals of desire when that's not the case at all. Find out more.

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	Part 4

Fingers

We asked you to measure your ring and index fingers. Your ratios came to:

Right Hand: 1
Left Hand: 0.97

Average ratio for men: 0.982
Average ratio for women: 0.991

It's thought that your ratio is governed by the amount of testosterone you were exposed to in your mother's womb. The ratio of the length of your index finger to the length of your ring finger is set for life by as early as three months after conception. Even during puberty, when we experience intensive hormonal changes, the ratio stays the same.

Men generally have a ring finger that is longer than their index finger, which gives them a lower ratio than women, whose ring and index fingers are usually of equal length.

Studies have found that men and women with lots of brothers generally have more masculine finger ratios. Find out what other things scientists think our ratios may tell us.

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Faces

This task looked at how you rate the attractiveness of a series of faces. The images you looked at were digitally altered to create slight differences in masculinity.

Your choices suggest you prefer more masculine faces.

Highly masculinised male faces possess more extreme testosterone markers such as a long, broad and lower jaw, as well as more pronounced brow ridges and cheekbones.

Interestingly, women's preferences are said to vary across the menstrual phase. A more masculine face is preferred during the 9 days prior to ovulation, when conception is most likely.

A typical 'attractive' female face possesses features such as a shorter, narrower, lower jaw, fuller lips and larger eyes than an average face.

Are you surprised at what researchers think they can learn from your answers? Find out more.

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3D shapes

This task tested your ability to mentally rotate 3D shapes.

Your score: 8 out of 12
Average score for men: 8.2 out of 12
Average score for women: 7.1 out of 12

What does your result suggest?

If you scored 0 - 6: Do you find yourself having to physically rotate a map to point in the direction in which you're travelling? This might explain why you scored in the lower range in the 3D shapes test. Twice as many women as men score in this category. Previous studies suggest that those with a female-type brain or with an arts background fall into this range.

If you scored 7 - 9: In past studies, 50 per cent of the people who scored in this range were women and 50 per cent were men.

If you scored 10 - 12: Are you an engineer or do you have a science background? People with these skills tend to score in this range. Past studies have concluded that people in this range have a more male brain.

Nearly a third of men who took this test got full marks, whereas less than 10 per cent of women managed the same. Find out why.

Words

This task looked at your verbal fluency.

Your score: you associated 10 word(s) with grey and you named 5 word(s) that mean happy. We are assuming that all the words you entered are correct.

Average score for men: 11.4 words total
Average score for women: 12.4 words total

What does your result suggest?

If you produced 1 - 5 words: You are more of the strong, silent type with a male brain. You probably find it easier to express yourself in non-verbal ways, preferring action rather than words.

If you produced 6 - 10 words: Most people in this range have a female-type brain.

Women are said to use both sides of the brain when doing verbal tasks while men mainly use their left side. Studies have shown that girls develop vocabulary faster than boys. This difference in brain power is caused by levels of pre-natal testosterone. Find out more .

Ultimatum

This task asked you how you would divide money.

If you had to split £50 with someone, you said you would demand £25

So far on the Sex ID test, men have demanded 51.6% (£25.80) of the pot and women have demanded 51.0% (£25.50), on average.

What does your response suggest?

Sex differences are small in this task. Demanding less than 60% of the pot (ie £30) is more typically female. Demanding more than 65% of the pot (ie £32.50) is more typically male.

Scientists believe that people with lower testosterone levels tend to take fewer risks so they are probably more willing to keep less for themselves. Those with higher testosterone levels tend to drive a harder bargain and are less compromising.

Men's testosterone levels fluctuate over the seasons and are at their lowest levels during the springtime. This is said to influence their bargaining power. Find out more about the role of testosterone.

reflections

2007-04-04T07:01:00.001-07:00

my reflections of the week: especially after i lost the match against YJ..

凡事由其自然，
遇了处之泰然，
得意之时淡然，
失意之时坦然，
艰辛曲折必然，
历尽沧桑悟然。

女孩问“下辈子，你想做男生，还是女生？”

男孩想了想“你呢，你先选，然后留下的那个答案就是我的答案？”

女孩想了想“我啊，我还是要做女生”

男孩笑了笑说“呵呵，你选了女生，那我还是男生好了！”

女孩很好奇，“为什么我选下的答案会是你的答案啊？”

女孩知道一辈子是好长好长，要让一段感情不变质的永远存在好难好难，但是她听了好感动。

女孩问“什么东西都让我先选吗？”

男孩回答“恩”

男孩楞了一会说“啊~不会吧？那我不是浑身缺点了啊？”

男孩接着，小心翼翼的问“如果，我们真的换了，我是个浑身缺点的男生，你~，你还会喜欢上我吗？”

这时，女孩在心里为自己的任性，小心眼感到羞愧，男孩不是不肯跟她换优点，原来是怕到时候女孩看不上他，原来他是这么在乎女孩的啊！”

女孩的嘴角感觉到一种咸咸的味道，她知道，那叫幸福的眼泪！

有时候，男人可以为他们心爱的女人做任何事，放弃一切，他们不要求回报，只要求心爱的女人开心，快乐，他们就心满意足了。

table tennis

2007-03-28T05:41:00.000-07:00

today was the first match for the national table tennis competition.. and i think we did quite well i think..

overall, the girls won 5-0, which was like amazing..
although everyone was like super nervous, made a lot of mistakes that they shouldn make, but overall they are alright la.. =)

after that, me joanne and xuefen went to swensens to ear earthquake and just slack lo.. quite fun haha..

hope the guys team can do well too..

results

2007-03-27T00:40:00.000-07:00

Was quite shocked for my results..
not shocked because i did real bad.. but because it was above my expectations..

For Bio MCQ: i gotten 20/30, which was like quite high because there was a couple of questions that i did not understand.. go getting that is somewhat satisfactory for me!

ANd MATHS! i got 48/100 even though i left 50 marks blank! WHAT A SURPRISE! =)

was quite bored at home.. decided to let my creative juices flow and so i wrote this... hope u like it...

当我首次张开眼睛的时候，世界的一切都是模糊的。我以眼泪来迎接这个悲剧的开始。
当我首次把这个世界看清的时候，一切都是陌生的。我以沉默来回应这个悲剧的延续。
当我重复地看这个世界的时候，一切都已变得很清晰。但我以想不出以怎样的心情来回应这样的生命。。。我只好呆坐地等待结局的来临。。。

2007-03-24T20:35:00.000-07:00

nice story

有那么一对情侣.女孩很漂亮,非常善解人意,偶尔时不时出些坏点子耍耍男孩.男孩很聪明,也很懂事,最主要的一点.幽默感很强.总能在2个人相处中找到可以逗女孩发笑的方式女孩很喜欢男孩这种乐天派的心情. 　　

他们一直相处不错,女孩对男孩的感觉,淡淡的,说男孩象自己的亲人 . 男孩对女孩爱甚深,非常非常在乎她.所以每当吵架的时候,男孩都会说是自己不好,自己的错.即使有时候真的不怪他的时候,他也这么说.他不想让女孩生气. 就这样过了5年,男孩仍然非常爱女孩,象当初一样. 　　

有一个周末,女孩出门办事,男孩本来打算去找女孩,但是一听说她有事,就打消了这个念头.他在家里呆了一天,他没有联系女孩,他觉得女孩一直在忙,自己不好去打扰他. 谁知女孩在忙的时候,还想着男孩,可是一天没有接到男孩的消息,她很生气.晚上回家后,发了条信息给男孩,话说得很重.甚至提到了分手.当时是晚上12 点. 　　

男孩心急如焚,打女孩手机,连续打了3次,都给挂断了.打家里电话没人接,猜想是女孩把电话线拔了.男孩抓起衣服就出门了,他要去女孩家.当时是12点25. 女孩在12点40的时候又接到了男孩的电话,从手机打来的,她又给挂断了. 　　

一夜无话.男孩没有再给女孩打电话. 　　

第2天,女孩接到男孩母亲的电话,电话那边声泪俱下.男孩昨晚出了车祸.警方说是车速过快导致刹车不急,撞到了一辆坏在半路的大货车.救护车到的时候,人已经不行了. 　　

女孩心痛到哭不出来,可是再后悔也没有用了.她只能从点滴的回忆中来怀念男孩带给她的欢乐和幸福. 　　

女孩强忍悲痛来到了事故车停车场,她想看看男孩呆过的最后的地方.车已经撞得完全不成样子.方向盘上,仪表盘上,还沾有男孩的血迹. 　　

男孩的母亲把男孩当时身上的遗物给了女孩,钱包,手表,还有那部沾满了男孩鲜血的手机.女孩翻开钱包,里面有她的照片,血渍浸透了大半张. 　　

当女孩拿起男孩的手表的时候,赫然发现,手表的指针停在12点35分附近. 　　

女孩瞬间明白了,男孩在出事后还用最后一丝力气给她打电话,而她自己却因为还在堵气没有接.男孩再也没有力气去拨第2遍电话了,他带着对女孩的无限眷恋和内疚走了. 　　

女孩永远不知道,男孩想和她说的最后一句话是什么.女孩也明白,不会再有人会比这个男孩,更爱她了！

爱上一个人的7个预兆
1.当你正在忙时，却把手机开著，等著她/他的短信..你已经爱上她/他了　　
2.如果你喜欢和她/他两个人单独漫步..你已经爱上她/他了　　
3.当你和她/他在一起时，你会假装不注意他，但是当她离/他开你的视线时，你会急著寻找她/他...你已经爱上她了　　
4.当她/他受伤或生病时，你会很关心她，替她/他著急..你已经爱上他了　　
5.当她/他和别人要好时，你会感到吃不知其味...你已经爱上她了　　
6.当你看到她/他那甜美的笑时，你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑..你已经爱上她/他了　　
7.当你看到这篇文章时，心里想到某个人...你已经爱上她/他了

how true these 7 symptoms are....IS REALLI TRUE

sorce: wil's blog

job

2007-03-24T19:58:00.000-07:00

i resigned from dian xiao er today..

after william resign, lin ke resigned, and some auntie resigned, really felt that ther ei something not right about the environment there,, the pay is too low and they are biased.

furthermore, they cheated me of two months cpf with i have yet to claim from them..

nevertheless i managed to find another job.. interviewed at ben and jerry's yesterday and they said they will give me a call to ask me to come for training in one week's time...

really looking forward to my new job..

anyway. managed to have a break through with my music lesson people yest.
i think i made the right choice to join some of them to have a drink at hark cafe and listen to some people sing. Really manged to talk to them and understand them better. i think that future lessons will be more enjoyable as we now know each other better. i think all of us will be less nervous when we sing. thus allowing us to improve better.

actually, it was quite a terrible week for me because i felt that i did not do that well for my block test. hai.. after reading the comments written on the chem testpaper by my chem teacher, which said " KELVIN! YOU HAVE EITHER BEEN ON MC OR SLEEPING IN MY CLASS! YOU WILL BE CLOSELY MONITORED AFTER BLOCK TEST!"

really have to start studying hard le.. feeling the heat of being a j2

emerge!

2007-03-24T19:46:00.001-07:00

Quite shocked with the results that i obtained in the table tennis emerge competition yesterday!

it was just after my block test and i did not have time to train for 2 weeks.. however was so shocked that i managed to get in to the top 6 of the finals.

furthermore, met and made new friends during the competition.. and it so coincidentally turned out that one of them is in lorraine's cell group.. haha..

even though i did not really played that well, lots of miss chances and should have win every match with a real big score, nevertheless was still quite contented with my performance.

looking forward to the finals in 2 june.. =)

music lesson

2007-03-10T07:41:00.000-08:00

today was the second lesson of my vocal lessons and we had our instructor backk..
alex, our instructor was damn nice la.. his lessons are interesting, and he can teach and he can sing well too.. =)haha

and he is nice as in he volunteered to give me extra lessons for campus superstar next week =)

table tennis

2007-03-08T06:31:00.000-08:00

i can't believe that i'm going to sch just because of table tennis
i mean.. i dun feel like going to sch to study cause i dun pay attention anyway
sleeping in all the lectures and tutorials and whatever...
i go to sch just to attend training which is after school..
just for example today... i ponned sch today...
yet.. i went to sch in the afternoon for training...

the ironic thing is that i suck at table tennis..
i'm playing like shit now...
and competition is coming real soon..

sun sports man singles: 1030, this coming sunday, 10/3 at kallang sun sports
shall just go and see luck la..

sun sports boys under 18: tues 1130, at kallang sunsports
sure no hope le..
got yingjie, kena trash, daniel wong, also kena trash
sianz

and on 28/3, is the nationals.. confirm will not represent sch one.. so lousy now.. shit man. sianz..

anyway.. all of you are welcome to see me lose on sun and tues.. i dun mind.. just treat it as a free show..

new hope

2007-03-07T06:13:00.000-08:00

really happy and sad today...

sad cause i screwed up both SPA exams..

Bio - didn't know wat i was doing! lol.. mixed up solutions, threw the tissue paper in the container supposedly for the inoculation tube and the micro pipette tip.. etc etc.

CHem spa - my solution didn't work! for some reason they didn react.. hmm... then all my values wrong. have to make them up

happy cause i passed vectors test! i was 2 marks away from a perfect score!! and that 2 marks was because of some stupid careless mistake! 12/24 is 0.5! but i dunno why write as 4/9... dunno la

i need to improve on my table tennis.. i'm playing like shit...

really love this song now...

☆专属天使- tank, click to listen☆

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望